Cancerous Love (Joji x Reader)

37/38. (Joji)

Vanessa picked me up and we both sat in her car. The silence, that filled up the car made me feel uncomfortable. I have to be honest though, I don't believe that she's my girlfriend. I know I am going to find y/n somewhere. She's somewhere out there. I looked out of the window. "Joji." Vanessa said quietly. I don't know why but I couldn't stand her. Her voice made me cringe. Y/n's voice was smooth and I could listen to her all day. "Don't call me Joji." I said and looked at her. She knitted her eyebrows and I saw how her eyes filled up with tears. For a moment I realized, that I was acting like a huge dick. Guilt overcame my heart and I looked straight forward. I have to accept the fact, that I dreamed for 4 weeks and that y/n is not existent. My eyes started to burn and I closed them. As I felt how a tear rolled down my cheek, I had to control myself and try so hard not to sob. Vanessa parked the car and I opened the door. "George, can we talk please?" She asked and I closed the door back. I nodded lightly and looked down to my hands. "I know that you can't remember me but you know we are in a relationship..." She laid her hand on my knee and I held my breath. Her touch was so terrifyingly quenching, that it made me shiver. "You moved in with me one two weeks before the seizure thing happened." I quickly looked up. "We live together?" I asked and raised my eyebrows. She nodded and smiled. I shook my head and the smile in her face was gone. "I can't do this." I said and looked at her, feeling how my hands started to sweat. "I can't live with you Vanessa it's just... I don't love you. I don't even know you." My voice cracked while talking. Vanessa inhaled heavily. "But we can try to work it out Joj... I mean George." I shook my head once again. "I have someone else in my heart and on my mind. This won't be good for both of us." Vanessa looked down. "Imagine waking up from a coma and someone you don't know is trying to tell you that you're together, and that you both live together." I shook my head and laughed. "I can't do this. I won't do this." My eyes wandered to the window. The sun was going down slowly. "So where are you going to stay?" She asked me and I shrugged my shoulders. "I mean you can stay with me for now and then you can move back out." Vanessa talked in an undertone and I was able to hear the sadness out of her voice. I nodded and we both stepped out of the car. Vanessa opened the door to her... or our house. "Where is the bathroom?" I asked and she walked me to the door. Vanessa took my hand in hers "Are you hungry?" she asked and looked deep into my eyes. I shook her hand off and walked into the bathroom without saying anything. After that we both didn't talk a single word. Vanessa already laid down in the big double bed, but I decided to sleep on the couch without a blanket or a pillow.

The loud chirping birds woke me from my sleep. I sat upright and felt how stiff my neck was. The sun was shining through the blinds. I stood up opened them and the windows. Where was I going to stay? I had no idea and I also had no one to talk to. I pulled my phone out and went through my chats and contacts. As I saw someone saved as 'HairyNipple' I raised my eyebrows. I went through the chat and as I saw an actual picture of the and Max my heart started to beat faster. Was I dreaming? Max is not an imagination? A bright smile flitted over my lips as I pressed call. The phone was ringing and the excitement grew with every second.
"Yo?" The aussie accent was admissible.
"Max?!" I shouted through the phone and jumped up. I was extremely happy, that my best friend was real.
"Wtf George?! Is that you?" He shouted back. For some reason tears of joy filled up my eyes.
"Fuck yeah I am."
"Where the fuck are you? Still in hospital?"
"No. Let's meet I have to tell you something."
"Sure, even though I was going to meet Katt. I'll pick you up." I nodded so hard, that my head started hurting. Max hung up and I turned around and saw how Vanessa leaned at the door frame. "How do you remember Max?" She asked quietly. "Why don't you remember me but Max?" The knitted her eyebrows and looked at me furiously. "I don't know." I said and put my mobile back into my pocket. As I tried to walk pass her the held her hand infront of my chest. "Don't fucking play around Joji!" She shouted at me. I raised my eyebrows and looked at her. "How fucking dear you to shout at me?" I said and got nearer to her. Another fucking reason to hate her. "If I say I don't know, I mean it. Whore." I pushed her hand away from my chest and walked put of the door. I didn't know where I was going but the streets where familiar. Actually exactly the same like in my dream. My phone ringed, it was Max.
"Cunt where are you? Vanessa is crying what happened." I closed my eyes and exhaled heavily. "Fuck that. I'll send you my location." I hung up. After 10 minutes a black Audi stopped infront of me. I looked through the window and as I saw Max I opened the door and jumped in. "Dude." I said and wrapped my arms arpund him. "Fuck I missed ya." He said. "What are you two?" I heared from the backseat. "Fucking gay?" I completed his sentence and turned around. The skinny tall boy with the blackframed glasses and the hugeass forehead sat there. "Ian." I said suprised. "What's up man?" He said and pushed his glasses back. "I'm so fucking happy to see you two." I said and Max started to drive. "What happened to Vanessa?" Ian asked and leaned forward. "I don't care. I don't even fucking know her." Max raised his eyebrows. "George are you retarded?" I shook my head. "I can't remember anything, except everything that was in my dream." Silence- "Dream?" Ian asked confused. I nodded. "Basically I dreamed the whole time and I can't remember anything before the coma." I turned my head around. "How do you remember us but not Vanessa?" Ian asked. I smiled. "You guys where in my dream. And when I realized that Max was not just an imagination like y/n I was deadass so happy." I waited for a reaction but both still looked confused. "Y/n?" Max asked. Oh shit I totally forgot, that they don't know her. I looked down and thought about if I should tell them how I feel about her. "Just a girl I saw in my dream." I said quickly. Maybe I'll tell them later. We arrived at the bar, we always used to go to in my dream and got out of the car.

"Guys I need your help." I said and took a sip out of my glass. "Hmmnm" Max mumbled, as he choked down the whole bottle of beer. "I'm moving out from Vanessa's place, and I have to find a place to stay at, until I find myself a new apartment." Ian looked up from his phone. "You can just move back to your old apartment." I raised my eyebrows and leaned back. "I got my own apartment?" Ian nodded. From my right side Max started to cough and groan. "Yeah. I even think, that you still have your keys. Should I give Vanessa a call?" I nodded, because I wouldn't dare to talk to her again. Ian stood up and walked put of the bar, to avoid the loud music. "Katt is going to sue me." Max said and leaned his head on my shoulder. "Katt who?" I asked and looked at him. "Oh right. My girlfriend. But yo I don't care I have to spend time with my homie, who has alzheimer but only remembers his bros. What a bro." Max was already getting drunk. But there was also a third person, that I couldn't forget. Her beautiful eyes, her lovely smile, the perfect hair, her voice, kisses and touches. I couldn't clear my mind from her. She was just unforgettable.

Max wasn't able to drive, Ian drove us to Vanessa's place, I quickly grabbed the keys and packed all my stuff and got back into car. I felt bad for Vanessa, but what else was I going to do? Live with her, while loving someone else? Trying to keep up a really unhealthy relationship? Pretend like I love her and try to make her happy without me being happy? This relationship would end up with slamming doors and a broken heart anyways. As we stepped out of the car I held my breath. This was exactly the same penthouse I lived in. My stomach cramped together, as I thought of y/n. I quickly ran up the stairs, without saying anything. My steps got slower as I reached y/n apartment. Without thinking I pressed the bell and tried to control my short breaths. The door opened but a stanger stood infront of me. It was a short girl, with black hair and black eyes. "May can I help you?" She asked me. The disappointment was written on my face. "No. Sorry wrong apartment." I said and walked bachwards. "No problem." She smiled and closed the door. As I turned around Ian and Max stood at the end of the hall. "What on earth was that?" Max asked and raised his hands. "It's not time for hide and seek faggot." I shook my head and forced myself to smile even though the sadness teared my heart apart. I opened the door to my apartment. It looked like I still wasn't done with the moving because my bed and the closet where still there. Max and Ian helped me with unpacking my stuff. I had to go grocery shopping tomorrow. As we finished, it was time for them to leave. The sun was already down. I sat down on my bed and looked around. This shithole was still looking the same, except, that I was able to see the floor again. Suddenly loud music rang out from the apartment above mine. I tried my best to ignore it, but it was impossible. My head already hurted, and my mood was down. After solid 30 minutes, I couldn't handle it anymore and walked upstairs. It came from the apartment, I rang at today. I knocked and rang 30 times and finally someone opened the door. This time it wasn't that small asian girl. It was a black tall guy with a ton of make up on his face. He waved his hand to a direction and the volume of the music went down. "Can I help you?" he asked. I brushed my hair back, quite furiously. "Yeah you can I was trying to have a chilling time because I just moved here today and I wanted to ask if you could turn the volume down." The dude started to laugh. I crossed my arms infront of my chest and looked at him. "No honey..." He started clapping his hands. "...our friend just woke up from a ..." But before he could finish his sentence I widened my eyes and did it for him. "...coma?" I asked curiously. Suddenly someone else appeared next to this boy. As I saw her my heart skipped a beat and my sight got blurry for one second. These e/c eyes were exactly what I was looking for.

"Joji?"
"Y/n?"

She jumped on me and wrapped her arms around me. I digged my head into her neck and breathed in. I found her and now I was complete.

:'))💕 This story is complete now I guess hehe.

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