Cancerous Love (Joji x Reader)

5.

I felt his warm fingers exploring my back down his way to my tail bone. He stopped. "You've been my wildest dream lately. Now I want you to be my wildest reality." He whispered. His warm breath spread goosebumps all over my neck. As his hands slipped down my underwear a weak moan escaped my mouth. I clenched my teeth and felt his buldge growing bigger and bigger with every noise I gave from me. "Don't talk I just want to hear you moan." His voice was rough and deep. He gently liftet my chin and looked into my eyes. I could feel a finger going inside me. Pleasure in my face and sex appeal in his eyes. "Joji." I moaned and his lips were suddenly on mine. 'BEEP' 'BEEP' 'BEEP'

I jumped off my bed and looked around. It was a dream. It was just a fucking dream. My fingers immediately wandered down to my panties and I could feel how wet it was. I just had a wetdream holy shit. After a nice warm shower and fresh and clean panties I sat down infront of my fridge. I got depressed the more I looked at it. It was empty as fuck. Just like me. Okay emo-jokes to the side I have to go grocery shopping. I put on some clothes and made my way to my car. As I was driving to the nearest grocery shop I had to think about Joji. How I sat next to him and how he just talked about how much fucking unnecessary shit he and his friends Ian and Max bought for filming. The cashier would just look at them really strangely every time. I still didn't watch any videos of him. I seriously should. After I parked and got out of the car, I bought everything and headed back home.

Carrying the groceries meant just hell to me. I hated it so much. After everything was set in the fridge and cupboards I made myself eggs and bacon.

So now tell me who on earth would come to the idea to watch a FilthyFrank video while eating? That's right y/n. It's you. I gotta tell you're extremely stupid. xo

I pulled my phone out and typed 'FilthyFrank' in Youtube. The thumbnails were like really weird. On some of them I could see Ian and Max vomiting. Well I clicked on 'Human Cake' and started to watch it. After the first 3 minutes I couldn't continue eating. Joji was so different. I would NEVER recognize him while being like this. It was so gross but I couldn't stop watching. It was funny but it made me also cringe. Especially in that part when they ate that fucking cake and vomited everywhere. I didn't know why but his videos were so addicting. I continued watching a lot of videos and understood which characters he played. They all were really weird but my favorite was definitely Pink Guy. I didn't see him all day and I could feel the necessity from my bones to my skin. Should I knock at his door? I do not want to be so clingy. I could ask for something but that would make me look poor. He didn't gave me his number it would be so much easier just to text him. Suddenly I heard someone knocking at my door. I opened it and Joji was standing infront of me. "Hey." He smirked. "Joji. What's up." I asked and leaned on the doorframe. As much as I hoped he'd ask me out again he just said "I wanted to see how you're doing." I smiled at him. He was really caring and sweet. I asked him if he'd like to come in he nodded and stepped in. I showed him my apartment. "It looks really cozy here." He said and sat down on the couch. "Do you mind if I come more often?" Joji looked up at me with big eyes. "I would love to have you over more often." I said and realized how dumb it sounded. He laughed, grabbed my arm and pulled me down so i would sit too. "Tell me more about you." He said quietly. I didn't know how to start so I just laughed shyly and waited until he would ask me something. "Where do you come from?" Joji rested his head on his hand. "I am from Ohio." I replied. "Why did you come to New York?" He asked. "I am going to college here. I graduated highschool this summer." He closed his eyes and smiled. "You make me feel so old." He said. I could feel his hand on my knee. It was really warm. Just like I imagine it in my dream. "So you have to go to college tomorrow?" I nodded, trying not to make weird faces. His hand reciprocated my leg. "I am actually 18. That means I'm legal for you." I said without thinking. He laughed and looked into my eyes. "Y/n." I looked up. "And you're actually not that old why are you acting like this?" I plucked up courage and laid my left hand on his. I could feel the heat from his hand warming up my small cold hand. "Are you cold?" Joji now covered my hand with his. "No. I always have really cold hands." I could feel my whole body warming up and getting in a becalming status. He asked for my other hand and I gave it to him. He held my both hands in his. It was like a really awkward situation, because I was literally forced to look into his eyes. His gaze was pointed at me. Joji didn't even look away. I couldn't do that anymore so I looked down. "Y/n..." He whispered with his deep voice. I looked up and now his lips were touching mine. My brain began to send signals to my body which even I didn't understand. My stomach felt like I was going to throw up because of excitement. My chest area got really warm and also calming. Joji relinquished my hands and put his on my hips. He was a really good kisser. I was curious if I was really bad because I never made much experience with kissing. He broke the kiss and looked at me a little shocked. "I'm sorry." He said and wiped his mouth with his sleeves. "I am really sorry y/n. I didn't mean to..." Before he could finish his sentence I pressed my lips against his. It was a quick kiss just to tell him that he should shut the fuck up. I smiled. "You're not really good with words am I right?" Joji smirked and took my face into his both hands. With his thumb he bursted my cheek and lips. "I should leave now." He said, stood up and left without saying good bye. It was only 8 pm. I didn't know how to feel but I couldn't handle what just happened. He kissed me. I looked to the spot where he sat. A small folded white paper was laying there. I took it and looked into it. I could see a number and underneath it 'text me' with a really messy handwriting. I smiled brighter than ever ran to my room and saved his number. I decided not to text him today. I'll do it tomorrow.

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