Hanggang Kailan

Chapter 18

JIA's pov

I saw her yesterday with Maddie.

It seems like, they are talking about something na malalim

Of course, hindi ako nakita ni Bea.

Pero hindi nya yata napansin na dumaan ako sa harap nilang dalawa

Too serious, kaya di na din nila ko siguro napansin

"You don't have to reveal everything but you have to let her know that you are interested, even if it is indirect"

Yan yung tumatak sa isip ko

May point yung sinabi nya

Ano naman kaya ang pinagdadaanan ni Maddie..

Eto ako ngayon, papuntang Jsec. Kakain ako ng mag isa lang, kasi lunch break na.

I wasn't able to be with Jho and Mich. Kasi may klase pa sila

Ako lang talaga

Sa pagkakaalam ko, lunch break na din ni Bea ngayon

Nasaan ka na ba?

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Papunta na ko ng BEG ngayon para sa training

Pero ako palang ang nandito

Hanggang dito ba naman mag isa pa din  ako?

Hindi nagtagal, nagkaroon na ko ng kasama

Si Maddie.

Nilapitan nya ako, at hinawakan ang dalawang kamay ko

Nakaupo lang naman kami dito

"Jia.."

Mararamdaman mo na meron syang mabigat na sasabihin

"Jia, Im sorry.."

"w-why?"

"I don't want to ruin your relationship with Bea.. But, I think I am falling inlove to her.."

She said it painfully.

I understand you Maddie..

But it hurts, na palagi nalang ako yung naiipit dito.

"It's okay. You don't have to say sorry. It's a part of your life na ma-inlove."

"Are you mad at me?"

"No. Hindi ako galit. Im just..J-just don't mind about it nalang.."

"Jia, Im really really sorry.."

"Maddie, look in my eyes. Do you feel what I feel right now? Is it yes? of course, it's yes. Just don't mind it nalang, para wala na tayong intindihin pa"

Niyakap nya lang ako

Masakit, kasi palaging ako nalang yung nasasaktan

Hindi ko naman pinagdadamot si Bea pero..

Hindi ko na alam..

Should I let go?

Forgive and forget?

Kung mahal mo, ipaglalaban mo.

Im sorry Maddie, pero hindi ko na kayang iwanan pa si Bea..

Im really sorry..

MADDIE's pov

I know that if I'm patient she and I might get closer enough. But we only have one year of collage left and 2 years for playing in Uaap.

Sometimes I feel she might like me back..

She says she misses me when she doesn't see me and puts her head on my shoulder.

I love my friendship with her, and I wouldn't want to ruin that. But I want to be her Girlfriend.

What can I do? Should I risk everything and tell her? or Should I just ignore it and move on somehow?

Im scared of being hurt..

Natatakot ako kung ano ang magiging resulta kapag inamin ko na sa kanya..

Patapos na kaming kumain lahat dito sa dorm, katabi ko si Jia, harap naman si Bea

Nauna kong natapos at umalis kaagad..

tapos na din naman si Jia at kasunod ko lang syang naglagay ng plato sa kusina.

"Maddie, lets talk about your feelings for Bea."

Nung nasa labas na kami, nagsalita na kaagad sya

"So, what are you planning?"

"Nothing.. or.. I don't know what to do"

"I can suggest something for you. But make sure that she won't fall in love with you. Can you promise me that?"

"I promise"

"You already know, how I love Bea. Just do, whatever your heart says."

"Thank You Jia, Thank You."

"I suggest that you enlighten her with your feelings and face the results, whatever they might be" Sabi ni Jia

"And, with no pressure over her head, she is more likely to listen to you with an open heart" Dagdag pa nya

Bilib ako dito kay Jia

Inuuna nya yung sarili nya kesa sa iba

I don't know kung tama ba 'tong ginagawa ko

Pero ang alam ko lang ay nagmamahal ako

yun nga lang, sa ibang taong meron na..

Yun lang ang mali.

"Jia, whatever happens..Im really sorry. I promise that I'll fix this everything sooooon.Habang hindi pa huli ang lahat, Im really sorry. Sana mapatawad mo ko"

"Ofcourse,Maddie. Mapapatawad kita, naiintindihan naman kita eh. Mahirap magmahal kapag yung taong mahal mo eh may mahal ng iba.. Pero ako dapat ang mag sorry"

"No, you don't have to"

"Nah, I have to. Kung hindi ko lang talaga mahal si Bea.. Ipapaubaya ko sya sayo. Pero Im sorry.. Kasi mahal ko si Bea, at sana maging masaya ka na din para saming dalawa"

Niyakap ko sya ng sobrang higpit. Yung bang mararamdaman ni Jia na isa syang anghel sa buhay ko na nagbibigay ng tamang desisyon..

She's a blessing to my life..

And I am so lucky to have a friend like her. <3