Mercy

Chapter 18

-LIAM’s POV-

God, this constant need to touch her was almost uncontrollable. She was too good for me and I am sure she knew it. Why else would she shy away from me so much? I let my hands rub slowly up and down her back as she lay on top of me. Seeing her straddled across my body was enough to send me into a frenzy. Thinking back on it, I don’t think I have ever had to practice so much self-control in my life. Well, that was an understatement; you see I never practiced self-control.  She was a whole new ball game to me, this was all new but I was willing to do anything to keep her. “Can we just… talk or something?” She asked softly, as she looked down at my chest. Talk…okay we could talk… I shift myself under her, so that she can’t feel the bulge that had formed thanks to the heated events from moments ago. “What would you like to talk about?”

            Her eyes made their way back up to meet mine; there was a hint of relief in them. Her swollen lips curved into a soft smile as she sat back up so that she was upright; sitting on my stomach. “Well…I don’t know…” Her teeth tugged gently on her bottom lip causing a deep moan to escape the back of my throat. “Babe, listen…you can’t be doing that…while sitting on me like this… you might just kill me.” I chuckled as her cheeks burned bright red. “Sorry…” She gulped and started to climb off of me. I quickly grabbed her waist, planting her firmly back in her spot. “Don’t.” Her body relaxed back on top of me as I rubbed over her waist with my fingertips.

            “Oh, wait, I know something we can talk about…” I replied, “We are all going to the beach Saturday. My parents own some beach front property so we were going to go up…spend the day…maybe have a bonfire…would you want to go with me?” She was silent as she wiggled around on top of me. “Who is going to be there?” She finally asked once she had found a comfortable spot. “It will just be a couple of my friends and they might bring some girls…” I cringed slightly when I said ‘some girls’. “I mean Lacy is going to come. Some of the guys bring dates and some bring girlfriends.” I quickly tried to recover from my word vomit.

            My eyes were clawing at her for some sign of what she was thinking. “So…this would be like…a date?”  Her hands ran slowly up my chest as she spoke. “Well yeah, I sure as hell don’t see you as a friend there, little bit.” I watched carefully as she tilted her head to one side as she spoke. “What do you see me as then?”

            I was kind of shocked by the question, but I knew I couldn’t blab to her the truth and take the chance in scaring her away. Though, girls like her didn’t want to be played around with so what do I say.

 

-SAM’S POV-

“Well yeah, I sure as hell don’t see you as a friend there, little bit.” His words made my heart race. I cocked my head to the side, letting my nails gently scratch at his shirt. “What do you see me as then?” Oh man, where did this courage come from? Maybe I was still high from the contact of his lips against mine. There was no question about my feeling; I was drowning in him. “You know I don’t do the whole girlfriend thing…” Instantly, my lips turned down into a soft frown, I tried not to show it but it was impossible. “But…” He took my chin, tipping it up so that I was forced to look into his eyes. “I’m not sure what I am doing here Sam. This is not familiar grounds for me. I don’t know how you feel or what you want from me but I can’t seem to let you go which means I want something from this. What do you want from me?” I gulped hard at his question. There were thousands of thoughts flying through my mind. “I want you but I know I can’t be enough for you…” His body shot up, encasing me in his arms. “What the hell does that mean?” His tone had changed and sounded a bit frustrated now. “I-I… I don’t mean anything bad by it…” Oh god, I have made him angry, why the hell do my insecurities always control me. “But what did you mean Sam? If we want this to work you have to trust me and be honest with me. I can’t read your mind. Talk to me.” His voice returned to his soft tone. I guess it was now or never, I couldn’t hide from the truth forever and if he was going to run off better sooner than later.

“Promise you won’t just shove me off and ask me to leave?” I left my eyes shut as I buried my face into his chest. He let out a loud chuckled and gave me a tight squeeze before lying back onto the bed. “Baby, there isn’t anything you could say that would shock me.”  The thought of that being so true kind of made my stomach turn. I was like a nun compared to him. This is a terrible idea; he is going to laugh in my face. “Well….like…” I started, my eyes now searching the room for some kind of escape. “Yea?” His voice sounded a little frustrated but who could blame him, I was acting like a child. “Listen…I am not going to be able to please you like those other girls. You are going to be so disappointed and could you even stand that? I mean if there are any actual feelings for me besides wanting in my pants what happens when everything sucks?!” I rambled in a loud panicked voice. I slammed my hand over my mouth as my face turned bright red. “Fuck!” I yelled as I rolled off of Liam and buried my face into the pillow. This was so embarrassing and none of what I said made any sense.

“Babe…I am not going to lie… you lost me. I am not sure what you are talking about.” He spoke in a calm tone. Trying to calm myself down I took a deep breath and turned my head towards him. “Liam, I’m a virgin. There is no way in hell I can compete with those other girls.” My voice was soft and defeated.  There I said it. I told him the truth. I clenched my eyes shut tightly, as if preparing myself for his reaction. There was nothing but silence, and then suddenly I felt him on top of me, pulling my legs around his waist. “Look at me.” He said sternly. I gulped hard as I slowly peeked out at him. God, he was hot, and having him hover over top of me made me sweat a little. A playful smirk was stretched over his lips.

“Two things.” He stated, leaning in so that his lips brushed against mine as he spoke. “First off, that is turning me on way more than I would like to admit. Second, is that why you’ve acted so uncomfortable around me?” My breath hitched in my throat at the thought of me turning him on. I couldn’t answer him; I was frozen into my spot. He nibbled softly on my bottom lip, the smirk still lingering on his lips. All I could do was nod quickly at him. He let out a soft laugh, kissing my lips gently. “Listen, we will finish this conversation but I need to take a nice cold shower before I lose it.” He kissed my lips once more before climbing off of me and heading to the bathroom. My eyes followed him as he started to undress, tossing his unwanted clothes to the floor. “For a virgin you seem awfully interested.” He joked as he started to slowly unbutton his jeans. “Oh god…I am so sorry!” I yelled covering my eyes. I wasn’t sorry, god he was so good looking. He let out a chuckle and then it was quiet. I peeked out and he was gone. The bathroom door was open a crack and I could now hear the soft sound of the shower.  Was it really that easy? He was okay with this? My head was now swimming in thoughts. Easing off the bed, I made my way to the bathroom; knocking softly on the door. “Yes?” His voice muffled by water. I didn’t even ask, instead I just entered the bathroom with my arms crossed over my chest. When my eyes locked on him I froze again. Oh, god, what am I doing!? He’s naked! He didn’t seem to be effected by my presence, his face was buried under the water and his arms rested against the wall. “You can join if you want but trust me there would be zero control.” He mumbled as he glanced at me through the clear shower curtain. Oh my, my whole body felt hot from his words. “Um..no..um I’ll wait out there.” I called as I turned on my spot, exiting the bathroom. I could hear him laugh as I shut the door behind me.