Mercy

Chapter 45

After slipping away from Sam I headed out to my car, speeding off down the road. I could feel my temples pulse as I tried to focus on the road and not the anger that was slowly building inside of me. After all this time that I had lived recklessly I now struggled with my morality. Yeah, I hadn’t done some great things and I had some blood on my hands but the nauseous feeling that climbed up my throat at the image of what he had done to Sam just didn’t sit right with me. It was also no secret that I had a few anger issues of my own and that crossing my father wouldn’t end well for either of us. There was a chance that things might go south, and I needed to know who had my back. After talking to some of the guys we had decided to meet up at a local dive bar to discuss the issues. As I made my way inside I had to keep trying to burry the emotion, not wanting the guys to see this side of me.

They were already there when I walked in, having claimed the pool table towards the back of the bar. As usual Trenton and Alex were there along with some of the other guys I worked with. All eyes were on me as I made my way over to the table; these were the guys I could trust to keep things under wraps even if they didn’t want to play a part. “Liam.” Jason, one of the older men nodded in my direction. I simply nodded as I leaned against the pool table. “So, you all know that my father and I aren’t on good terms.” I spoke with authority. I may not be as high up as my father, but they respect me just as much for my foot work. “He has really fucked up. I’m only bringing you all here to know who has my back if things turn for the worst.” I was very blunt with them, they knew that I didn’t deal with bullshit. They were silent for a moment before one of the guys spoke up. “Liam, your Dad might run things, but you have your hands dirty just like the rest of us. You know we will have your back.” My eyes met with each of the guys, their heads nodding in agreement. I wasn’t sure where all this was going to lead but I knew that I could trust them.

After talking in more detail with the guys I made my way out of the bar. The cool night air clearing my mind from the heavy discussion we had inside. Alex and Trenton followed me out, stopping as they lit up a cigarette. “So Liam, what’s your plan? What exactly has happened?” I may have explained that my father had done something I saw as unforgivable, but I didn’t share the fact that it had been Sam he had done it to. The only person who knew was Trenton. “Sam knows my father. Apparently when she was younger her parents were some clients and he used to take their failure to pay out on Sam. Now, I know that it’s a common practice to rough people up a bit to get a payment. However, we don’t it out on children physically or sexually. I will make sure that anyone else that has taken care of their business this way will be properly dealt with.” The negative thoughts were taking over me again and I wanted to strangle my father. “Fuck man, what do you need us to do?” Alex asked, I knew these guys would go to hell and back for me no matter what I asked them to do. We headed back inside and decided to discuss our options.

By the time I got home it was about three in the morning. I hadn’t planned on leaving her alone that long but working out details on how we planned on handling things took longer than I had expected. Now my only thought was climbing into bed with her and getting some much-needed sleep. I was disappointed when I opened the door and Sam was sat in the middle of the bed, wide awake. “Baby, why are you awake?” I frowned, making my way over to her. Her once bright eyes seemed dull and she had dark circles under them. “I can’t sleep.” She whispered, her eyes not moving from the spot on the wall that they were focused on. I tugged my shirt off and tossed it to the floor and climbed into bed. “Come on, you need to get some sleep.” I kissed her cheek as I pulled her close. Her eyes finally pulled away from where ever she had been looking, her eyes now meeting mine.

She reached down and started to unbutton my jeans; I placed my hands-on top of hers, slightly confused by her actions. “What are you doing?” I asked, rubbing my thumbs over her hands. “I need you to take these off. I need you.” She whispered, her fingers eagerly trying to remove my jeans. I pushed her hands away, sitting up so that my back was against the headboard. “You need to get some sleep you are exhausted.” I tried to pull her under the blankets, but she quickly pushed it away as she climbed onto my lap. “Liam, you don’t understand….” Her voice trailed off as she ran her hands over my chest. My body reacted to her touch, a soft groan escaping my lips before I could stop it, “What do I not understand? You have to tell me.” I put my hands-on top of hers, stopping them from exploring more of my body. “I have all these bad memories, ones that have stopped me from experiencing good things.” Her voice was soft but firm at the same time as she pulled her hands away from mine. “I need you to replace these bad memories with good ones.” She leaned in kissing over my neck. “I want you to make me feel good.” She continued, as she grabbed my hand and positioned it between her thighs. “As much as I want to do anything and everything to your body I don’t think this is what you need, Sam. You had bad experiences and I don’t want to be one of them.” She stopped kissing at my neck long enough to sit up and look me in the eyes. “I know you don’t understand why I need this, but I do. I need someone that loves me to touch me. I need to have you show me love. Just show me you love me. Just tell me. Help me get rid of all these bad memories and let me have amazing ones with you.”

My heart felt like it was crumbling in my chest, there was no way I could do any of these things she wanted right now. I knew deep down that she honestly thought it would fix everything, but I knew it would just make things worse. This girl had some wild ways at controlling me, any other time if a girl had told me to do these things saying no wouldn’t have even crossed my mind, but I loved her too much to say okay. Slowly, I moved my hand from between her thighs, placing it onto her waist. “Sam, baby I love you more than I know how to express. We will make a lot of good memories, and one day I hope to fuck you on every inch of this house but right now I just want to hold you.” Her body slumped in my lap as her head rested on my shoulder. “I just don’t want these memories anymore. I just want to feel the way you make me feel.” Her voice cracked as she nuzzled her face into my body. My arms gripped her small frame tightly, I knew nothing I said would make her feel better right now. “I love you. We will get through this. I promise I am going to take care of everything.” I whispered as I tugged the blankets up over our bodies. I kept Sam glued to my chest as we both finally drifted off to sleep.