An Eternal Explosion

T w e n t y - S i x

I almost cried while writing this chapter. I'm pretty emotional so maybe it's just me but this is a warning just in case. This chapter is kind of sad.

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Two months.

Two months since the jinchuriki mission.

Two months since I woke up to see my favourite person in the world.

Two months since I last heard that wonderful laugh.

Two months since I last saw such a beautiful smile.

It's been two long, excruciating months.

Since I left her to die.

The base was quiet, too quiet. It hadn't been the same ever since I returned with the news of her death. Everyone was different, which one wouldn't suspect of S-ranked criminals. The little brat had somehow left her mark on everyone here, and everyone had grown to care about her in some way. The base had become utterly depressing since... that day.

I remembered returning to the base like it was only a couple minutes ago.

Everyone was in the living room, and Kakuzu was stitching Deidara's arms back on. Others were sitting rather uncomfortably as they waited for mine and the brat's return. I should have been back the day before considering when the fight ended and the travel time, but I waited an extra day. A day to compose myself so they wouldn't see how I was really feeling. Konan was pacing back and forth, and Pein was attempting to calm her down. I stood in the doorway for almost two minutes before Pein noticed me standing there.

"Enter," he had said, "how was the mission on your end?"

My lips parted, but no words came out. I didn't know where to start, and my mind couldn't wrap around it. I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to admit what had happened. I didn't even want to think about it. I attempted once more and choked back a sob, desperately trying to prevent my true emotions from showing through. How could I say something so brutal? How could I say that my blonde was...

"Where's Deimara, un?"

Dead.

My heart shattered just at her name and I mentally cursed myself. I let my guard down and she snuck in my castle walls. Then she tore them down, one by one, until none were left. She made me feel once again, she made all my emotions come back. And now, because of that, my heart was breaking. My sanity was disappearing. My entire world that had been living within that beautiful bomber... was gone.

"She's..."

"Danna?"

"I..."

My brain was scattered, and all my thoughts were jumbled. Why couldn't I say it? Why couldn't I say it? She's gone and there's nothing I can do about it. Everything hurts so much, I'm breaking. I'm dying inside. Someone, anyone, please help me. Get me out of this situation. Save me, please.

"Danna... Where's Deimara, un?" Deidara demanded, voice growing lower.

Silence filled the room and it was killing me, ripping me apart. My eyes caught Konan's and she instantly seemed to understand, reading my mind. A sob raked in her throat causing all eyes to move towards her before looking back towards Sasori. Deidara grew angry, standing just as Kakuzu finished sewing his arms back on. He stormed forward and slammed my back against the wall, yet I made no move against it.

"Where the fuck is she, Sasori!?" He demanded.

"Dead."

The brat's eyes widened, before he slowly released me. His body bean to tremble and the 18 year old fell to his knees. Agony filled his heart, and a wail came from his throat. Konan's sobbing only grew louder, resulting in Pein pulling her into a hug for comfort. The rest of the Akatsuki had been completely silent, their heads moving to look at the ground in a quiet mourning.