An Eternal Explosion

T w e n t y - O n e

I'm so sorry guys! I publish this in multiple locations and I've been really busy and I was sick at one point and I COMPLETELY forgot to update it on Wattpad. I'm also on Quotev, and I update there most regularly, and may soon be moving to fanfiction.net as well. Anyway, I'm really sorry and prepare for a spam of four chapters.

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"Could you at least tell me what the hell you're talking about, hm!?" I snapped, rising to my feet.

It was after all quite rude to talk back and forth like that, about me, when I was sitting right there. Both seemed to freeze in place before Konan returned to her seat and the medical ninja turned to face me properly. I sat back down on the bed with a deep breath.

"You see, Miss Deimara... You're pregnant."

"I'm...What!?"

"You're pregnant."

My heart beat seemed to speed up, and my pace of breathing increased. Panic came over me, as I attempted to process the news I'd received. I couldn't be... It was too much. Going through pregnancy, giving birth, raising a baby. I couldn't handle it, I couldn't do it. I was only 18, although turning 19 soon. But still, I wasn't ready. Still, it was just too much.

"Alright, I need you to take deep breaths for me. Can you do that?" The medical ninja spoke calmly.

My eyes moved towards him in panic, and I began to feel a sick feeling in my stomach. The medical ninja placed his hand on my back and began to guide me out of the room, Konan following right after. Konan took over when we reached the bathroom, me collapsing to my knees and emptying the little contents of my stomach.

My back leaned against the bathroom wall, pulling my knees closer to my stomach. Tears formed in my eyes, falling down my cheeks and dripping onto the floor. Konan crawled over beside me as a sob raked in my throat, her pulling me into a comforting hug.

"Y-You knew?" I choked out.

"I had a theory, but I didn't want to tell you in case I was wrong. I didn't want to worry you or get your hopes up for nothing." Konan replied. "So, how are you feeling?"

"I... I'm afraid. W-What if Sasori doesn't want it? How am I supposed to tell him? I-I don't know..."

"I want to tell you everything will be alright, but I honestly don't know..."

"A-And Deidara... What am I s-supposed to say t-to Deidara?"

"I don't know..."

"I-I can't... I can't do this..."

"I'll be here every step of the way. It'll be our secret until we figure out how to tell the others." Konan promised.

My hand moved to my stomach, looking down at the slight amount of weight I'd gained. At that point it all made sense to me, everything. The morning sickness, the cravings, the weight gain, the mood swings, the tiredness, the dizziness, the headaches. Everything made sense.

But I didn't want it do.

I loved children, and in the future would have wanted to start a family. But now, it was not the time. It was much to soon, and at the worst time. My forehead rested on my knees, as my body shook from sobs. What could I do? It felt like everything was just happening so fast, and I had no control.

I shouldn't have fallen to my desire for Sasori, I shouldn't have let him... I should have refused, and told him to wait. He would have listened, I know he would of. But I was stupid and just went ahead without thinking of the consequences. Now, I would be forced to face them.