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•forty-six•

It's been a couple days. I have dealt with all the paperwork for my new flat and today is the day Joe comes back home. I am not sure what's going to happen between us but I think in any case it would be a good idea to just slow down and take our time.

I  decided to get out of bed and take a quick shower. I dried myself with a towel and put on a black  t-shirt dress, tied a black and green flannel around my waist paired with some open toe black ankle boots that had cute rose embroidery on the side. I added some cute accessories to top it off. i left my hair in waves and put on  light makeup.

I heard the doorbell go off and went over to the door with my heart pounding. i opened the door to reveal sun kissed Joe with his hands full of luggage. he placed it inside the house and looked at me with watery eyes. I was not ready to have an argument so i wrapped my arms around him and so did he. No words were coming out of him or me it was just one of those moments where you feel like you have a stone in your throat and its so hard to speak.

pulling away from him i got myself together because i know that a serious talk is coming.

"go on then explain" my tone was as casual as it could be and i tried to hide the slightest hurt that was inside me.

"well, i should start before i left" that got me slightly confused but i nodded as a sign for him to continue.

"Before i made a move on you i knew Jack had something for you so jack and i talked about that and he said that it would be better if i was to be with you as he does not deserve someone who is as good as you so instead of fighting we agreed i was allowed to make moves and jack would stay away. When i got there and faced timed you, you were alone with Jack and i just thought that he would try and pull you away from me."

mixed emotions were floating around me, how could JOE be insecure about loosing me, on the other hand just because he thinks Jack is going to do something does not mean that he can hurt me like this.

"it does not matter what Jack does because i would not hurt you, this seems more about your attitude towards him then about me." i feel emptiness and stare at the floor.

"i think you should figure out how to do your own thing and work on your friendship with Jack because he is an amazing person and I am sure would never go against what he said to you. you need space and thats okay .I have rented myself a flat its only 10 minutes away, im here for you but we need to figure out ourselves before we figure out who we are"