Saved by Youtubers// Jack Maynard & Joe Sugg

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Caspar decided to throw a small get together at his house for everyone and i could feel the awkwardness coming without even being in the room. I don't feel as mad at Joe as I should be, because if I was it would just be worse for me.

Joe and I decided to walk there as it was close and I promised that on the way I would show him my new flat. I turned the key and opened the empty apartment which tomorrow is going to be filled in with my stuff. Joe did not look surprised or interested in the apartment. It looked like a wave of reality hit him, he was numb not making a slight movement standing still in front of the shut door to my own place.

"I can't believe you're actually leaving, all I can think of is that I messed up so bad and now you're leaving me. I am so sorry, I mistreated you and you do not deserve that" he was crying... tears were actually streaming down his face. He done me so wrong but my heart is braking at this sight. A grown up man is crying about something he has done but it is more about me than it is about him, it is not the consequence of what he has done.

This has sent my body into shock and I froze for a second not knowing what to do. I followed what my body was doing and slowly walked up to Joe tears brimming my eyes and wrapped my hand around his head pulling him into my chest, we slowly slipped into the floor and Joe was crying into my lap while my brain had no thoughts what so ever and I just stared at the blank Magnolia colored wall with my eyes wide open.

Once we were both calm I decided to go to the bathroom and check my face, my mascara was clumped up from the water in my eyes and my eyes were red. My face had same expression that I saw when I looked at myself after the incident but overall I still looked fine.

I walked out of the. Bathroom to a red eyed Joe who's eyes were lightly swollen. I extended my hand to help him up and once he was able to stand up we shared another long hug.

I opened the door and took a last look at my new home which now has one very bright memory that it will hold forever.