A False Sense of Security

Chapter 6

I blink my eyes open. My sight is blurry, I can barely tell that I am not in my room or even my house. My arms are sore for some reason.

I stare in front of me and wait to regain my vision. Once I can kinda see outlines of things, I start looking around the room. I sit up in the bed, my arms grazing the sheets, a fire lines my arms.

Where am I? I then notice I'm in a hospital room. Why am here? I hear the door unhitched and it opens. Rafe walks in with McDonald's and his eyes light up when he sees me awake. He throws the bag at me and races to hug me.

"Oh thank god, Kiara, your all right! You gave us a hard attack! Don't you ever do something like that, again! Why would you even think of doing something like that? We were so scared you," his voice cracks at the last part of his rambling. "I'm sorry," I say timidly not even getting teary eyed at his fear of loosing me.

I'm guessing Koda could hear the commotion from outside because he busts through the door. "You stupid girl! Don't you ever do something like that, again! You almost lost all of your blood! You were in coma for 2 days straight! I had to deal with Rafe alone! If you ever think of doing something like that again, I will kill you myself," Koda says in a playful African accent, scolding me as he hugs me and wacks the back of my head.

"Wow! I feel so loved," I said in a sarcastic joking matter. They both stared at me with frowns as if they didn't know if I was joking or not.

"What happened?" Bruce says at the foot of the bed.

"People were just being mean," I say trying not to make eye contact with him. He frowns.

"What have I told you about people bullying you, Kiara. You can't let people-" he starts to say.

"Walk all over you or you'll be squish down until your nothing, I know." I say in a sour tone, cutting him off.

"You have to-"

"Tell me these things. Just don't handle it by doing this," I finish again for him. He looks at me with a hint of anger in his eyes.

"Kiara, this is serious!" We both yell at the same time. I think of how childish I'm being. I'm only trying to make myself feel better. It doesn't work. His gaze hardens and then softens when he realizes what I'm doing. He smiles.

"The doctors said you can go back to school on Friday but you have to spend another day here. There will be a therapist coming to meet you here and there will be a session here tomorrow." He informs me. "Though you will need to meet with him every Friday, and that's mandatory. I'm still waiting to be told the address."

"Aye Aye Captain!" I say as I salute him. He shakes his head and walks out of the room. "Goofball," He mumbles. I take that as a compliment.

"Who?" Koda asks sounding pissed.

"A kid," I mumble.

"Was it the one that you met in first period?" He asks angrily. My silence answers his question. "I'll beat his ass," Koda says. "We'll beat his ass," Rafe corrects. "No it's okay, really. I should of told you guys instead of suppressing it. Don't go and hurt him for what I did wrong." I depressingly said.

It's true I let him get to me and now my friends and family are suffering for my stupid decision. I wish I would have died so I didn't have to see the disappointment on their faces. God what will Kacie and Tana think. Will they still want to be friends with me?

My brothers decide I need some more rest and leave me to myself. The anxiety of what people will think of me is eating me away. I grab my McDonald's which is surprisingly still kind of warm. I eat and eat till there is not even a crumb left. Then something that would have made me very happy happened.

"Did you eat McDonald's without me?" Kacie says shocked. I look up and...don't smile. Why am I not smiling? Why am I not happy? I quickly force one and say "Hey Kacie, how are you?".

"Uh, Shouldn't I be the one to ask you that?" She says as she sits on the bed next to me. I try and make a believable chuckle. She smiles at me. She bought it.

"Hey Bitches!" Tana screeches as she walks in.

"Hey!" We imitate. Kacie and Tana start laughing. I think fast and recover by faking one. They don't seem to notice.

We talk as if it was any other day. I have to hear about Kacie's 1,000 crushes at school already. And Tana's new awkward sex stories. I try to play along as if I'm alright, but it only makes me think more about what's happening to me taking my mind off my friends.

Visiting hours are over and I am left to myself. Why can't I smile? Why can't I laugh? Why do I feel so...numb?