A False Sense of Security

Chapter 7

It's the next day and I'm sitting in my bed waiting to for my therapist to show up. I've never had therapy before so I don't really know what is going to happen. I know that in therapy you usually talked to them about your thoughts. And they usually ask "And how does that make you feel?". Though I don't know how I'm going to answer that if he does ask me.

The door opens and in walks a a tall, normal looking man. "Hi I'm Mr. Marino." He calmly speaks to me when he reaches the side of my bed. That name sounded so familiar but I don't know why. "So what do you want to talk about, Kiara?" He asks nonchalantly.

"Umm, Do I have to?" I ask.

"No, but you probably won't feel any better," He says.

"I haven't been able to feel anything at all since I woke up." I complained. He studies me. "It could just be from the medications they gave you, but if you still can't feel anything by next week, inform me of it, because that's really serious," He says in a very serious tone.

Just then the door opens and in walks someone I'd never expect. "Hey Dad, How long are you gonna be? Because I was gonna hang out with friends." Aiden asks. He stops dead in his tracks when he sees me and then he looks down at my arms. I cover them up quick by crossing my arms on my stomach. His face completely dropping. I looked so scared and I felt it too. Not the best emotion, but at least I'm feeling something. I look at Mr. Marino he looks mad.

"What have I told you about walking in and disturbing my sessions," He says pissed.

Aiden totally isn't listening to him. Because he is too busy staring at me. Then finally Aiden speaks.

"Kiara," He says in disbelief. I can only give him awkward smile. Mr. Marino looks back and forth between each other. "Have you met, before?" He asks the both of us.

"She's the unique girl I was telling you about," Aiden replies. It made me shudder in dismay and anger. To say it made my blood boil was an understatement. Aiden couldn't tell but Mr. Marino sure did. "Can I speak with her alone," He asks his son. Aiden makes no move to leave.

Instead he walks closer to me. I scoot farther away from the direction he's coming. For a reason I can't quite explain.

"Aiden," Mr. Marino warns. Aiden gets the hint then he looks at his dad. They share a look. He then looks at me.

"Kiara, since what you told me earlier is serious. I want Aiden here to keep an eye on you. It could definitely help you so you can be back to your normal self. Is that alright?" He asks. Even though I particularly don't like the guy. I want to get better and if it means I have to hang out with him once in awhile, it will all be worth it. I glance back and forth between Mr. Marino and Aiden. Then I grudgingly respond, "I suppose,". The room goes silent. Awkward.

"Does that mean I can stay or," Aiden asks breaking the small silence. Mr. Marino looks at me for the answer. I sigh and nod my head. I thought I saw the tips of Aiden's mouth go up for a second.  It must have been my Imagination or something.

"Kiara, Is there anything else you want to tell me about, besides what you said earlier?" Mr. Marino asks glancing up at Aiden when he said the last part. I sit up straight and glance at Aiden. Then I look straight at Aiden. This is when I tell him about the one thing I loathe, "I resent being called 'unique'," I simply say. Mr. Marino nods and glares at Aiden. Because he probably remembered he had called me that earlier.

The rest of the session consisted of me describing my thought process when I cut myself. Aiden looked like he was squirming from the corner of my eye when I was relaying to Mr. Marino what I was thinking. Aiden had a hint of guilt in eyes when I told them about being called unique as a kid and my years being an outsider.

Then I was asked if I cut myself before. I looked down at my hands trying to contain myself from hyperventilating. I took a deep breathe and quietly said "Yes,". Aiden has a look in his eyes I couldn't place. It was odd because I'm usually good at reading people's emotions, which is ironic cause Im obviously not good with my own emotions.

Mr. Marino asks what I used. I told them about the dagger in a box in my room. I'm guessing he is going to tell Bruce to keep that with, a.k.a hide it from me, until I am in a good state of mind. But is anyone really in a good state of mind.

We talk a little bit more of where and how the therapy sessions are gonna go down. He reassures me that Aiden will not be there. Thank God. I don't need to deal with his judgement right now.

***

I went home that night. It was very awkward and there was a lot of tension when I got home. I started to do my homework from Monday and the days I missed. I know I didn't have to, but I had to do something to get my mind off my depressed thoughts. Yes, I'm still depressed, but I'm at least trying not to be.

Benjamin knocks on my door. "Miss Kiara, there is someone here to see you." He informs. "Who?" I ask. Usually he knows who comes over for me, since it is usually Kacie and Tana. Benjamin gestures for me to follow him. So I do. I walk down stairs stop at the bottom when I see who it is.

Ah Fuck.