2am in the morning, Jessica still couldn’t enter her dreamland. She blinked her eyes many times staring at the empty wall.
The unacceptable fate still flying in her head. Her dream to have a family with Yul, either it will be hard for them, or will vanish into thin air. The thought of her seeing Yul sending their kids to school, now it’s impossible to visualize. She didn’t mind to live her life together with Yul alone, but she’s curious of how their life would be to be just the two of them.
Having Yul by her side made her feel complete and secured. He was the one who always would bring a smile to her face. He would always show the true meaning of love. He’s the guy who gave her a happy marriage life compared than before.
Sometimes people would say ‘couldn’t ask for more’ when their life feels complete. Yes, Jessica couldn’t ask for more when Yul first exist in her life. But right at the moment, she just wanted to ask just one small thing. That is, to have a family.
She turned her body around to see his back. He looked like he was asleep. But after knowing him for a long time, he can easily wake up.
“Seobang”
Her sweet tune made him to wake up from his sleep. He lied on his back and opened his right arm widely to give her access into his embrace.
“You’re not asleep yet, Sica?”
His groggy voice caused her smiles to appear. She loved hearing his sleepy voice. It made him sound more charming and manly.
“Can we talk?” she asked
“At this hour?” he glanced at the clock
“I can’t sleep if we don’t talk about it”
“About what?” Yul rubbed his eyes
“About our family”
He rested on his elbow, “Our family?”
She fondled on his fingers, “Yul, is it still possible for us to make a family?”
Staring into her eyes, he took her hand and planted a kiss on it.
“Sica, you went to the doctor by yourself didn’t you?”
Jessica nodded, “You were busy with work so I didn’t want to disturb you”
“It’s okay” he smiled. “That shows how brave you are to face the truth”
Her eyes started to glimmer with tears, “But the truth made me weak. Very weak, Yul”
“Hey don’t cry. My Sica is a strong girl, I know” he cupped her face
“Doctor told me I have a low chance, Yul. I might can, but I might not”
She was hopeless and weak, he can see it in her eyes. Perhaps a little scar visible on her heart for the unwanted scene from Yejin and himself the day before. He felt like a bad husband, for not being there to support her when she needed him at the first place.
“Sica” he pulled her into his embrace tightly, “We can work this out okay? There’s nothing to be afraid about”
“Sometimes” she sniffed, “I have dreams like you’re standing right beside me when I’m in labour, you’re the one who wakes up at night to check on our baby, and you taking care both of us when we fall sick. And one of the sweetest dreams I had was you bringing us to a vacation just to celebrate our next anniversary and our baby’s first birthday”
“So our child’s birthday would be the same as our anniversary?”
“Yes, but in my dreams..” she closed her eyes
“Hey” he used his thumb to wipe her tears away. “Look at me. Look at your seobang”
Her eyelids flipped open slowly.
“Beautiful eyes. Can I see them everyday?” smiled Yul
“As long as I can feel your warmth, yes you can” she grinned
He let herself to bury into his neck, “You don’t have to be weak. You don’t have to feel hopeless. I’m there for you. I will guide and help you. I will not make you sad. I will make you happy. I will try to not make you cry. I will definitely love you and make you love me back. So there’s nothing to be worried about, Sica. We still have each other. We’ll still be together despite all other obstacles even in the future. I will never let you go. I promise. Take this as my second vow to you”
“Seobang, I’ll try my best okay? To be a better wife to you. And to have a family to ourselves”
“There’s nothing for you to fix, Sica baby. You’re my bestest. I want you to know that I love you so much” he said before planting a kiss on her lips
“I’ll try whatever it takes for us to have a child” she said
“Don’t push yourself, baby” he pulled the blanket to cover them properly. “Come on. Let’s get back to sleep”
She closed her eyes and let him to wrap his arm around her body. The comfy warmth that she liked. That’ll definitely make her go to sleep.
Whatever it takes
