the anxiety;
it's overwhelming me
eating up every single cell in my body, which is slowly wearing down
the pressure,
it's pushing down on me like a twenty pound weight
crushing every one of my organs, which will stop running soon
the embarrassment,
when i don't get things right
is turning my cheeks the colour of my emotion
but shit,
the pressure
the pressure to always be right
the pressure to always be kind, even on a bad day
and the expectancy
the expectancy to always get perfect grades
the expectancy not to cry, even when it feels like you have a knife in your lungs
the expectancy to always know the answer to a question that can't be solved
the assumptions
the assumption that kids with perfect grades don't have mental health problems, and oh how the assumption is wrong
the assumption that kids with perfect grades always have a real smile, and oh how many times mine has been fake
the assumption that kids with perfect grades don't have to work for it, and oh how many nights i've stayed up until 3am hurting myself due to stress
don't pressure people into thinking they're perfect when they're not
because the expectations will get higher
and the assumptions will be the only thing you hear when you look at someone in the hallway
don't pressure people to expect assumptions.
YOU ARE READING
you promised forever // poetry
Poetry'i risked my life to get you this rose. now all i need to know is if you care enough to let it die or let it grow' a book of my poems/rants :) **lowercase is intended**
