you say that i'm crazy
psycho
toxic
manipulative
but i'm really just
crazy in love with you
and it really hurts
that you don't understand that.
when we were together,
you said that
you
were crazy in love with
me.
and i guess i assumed that it was always
going to be that way.
i guess i assumed that
you'd keep your promises
to love me forever,
take care of me forever,
and be here for me forever.
i guess i assumed that you weren't going to leave me
more broken than before.
i guess i assumed that you weren't going to make me
feel abandoned
since you told me you never would.
but people change, i guess.
the beautiful boy i was once in love with
no longer has a flash of passion
or care
in his eyes for me.
in his beautiful brown eyes
that once looked at me,
crazy in love.
i guess that you just
got tired of me
got annoyed with me
got angry at me
realized how incredibly
fucked
up
i am
and how
emotionally
unstable
i am.
i warned you that this was the case,
and you promised that you can love me
despite my flaws.
you promised that i wasn't crazy,
wasn't too needy,
and that you can handle me.
but no one will ever be able to handle me,
and you just proved that.
my fear of abandonment has never been so real
because i was abandoned
by the one person i trusted
to stay.
i wish i hadn't assumed anything
i wish i wasn't crazy in love with you
because that was a mistake.
YOU ARE READING
you promised forever // poetry
Thơ ca'i risked my life to get you this rose. now all i need to know is if you care enough to let it die or let it grow' a book of my poems/rants :) **lowercase is intended**
