i trusted you.
i poured every thought and emotion that was ever in my scattered mind into you because i trusted you.
i didn't want to because everyone who i trust and everyone who i love always leaves but you begged me to stay and you promised me that i could trust you.
i fell for your lies and i told you everything. it felt amazing for awhile until your promises slowly faded. they began to mean nothing to you and eventually, you broke them.
you didn't even try to keep your mouth sealed. if there ever was a zipper holding it shut you unzipped it with no remorse; no thought of me and how it would affect me.
you showed me how to open up to people and that there's no reason for me to have any trust issues,
but shortly after you proved to me that i should never open up to anyone no matter how many times they ask me to and that there is millions of reasons for me to have trust issues; and you're number one.
not only are you the number one reason for me to have trust issues but you're also the reason i have lost everyone. i distanced myself from everyone to focus on you. i focused on you because you were there for me when no one else was.
that was the biggest mistake i have ever made because now everything has changed. you have told everyone who i loved my darkest secrets and they don't see me as the same person anymore. they don't want me anymore and it's all because of you.
when i told you my secrets you still loved me for who i am and maybe that's why i thought maybe, just maybe, the people who you told would accept me in the same way.
but once again, i was wrong.
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wow this isn't even a poem it's just me ranting haha sorry
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you promised forever // poetry
Poetry'i risked my life to get you this rose. now all i need to know is if you care enough to let it die or let it grow' a book of my poems/rants :) **lowercase is intended**
