25 - numb
millie's pov
i slowly pushed finns arm off of me, careful not to wake him, and crept out of bed silently.
stepping outside i shivered in the cold, id expected it to be warmer as it was summer.
nonetheless i closed the door behind me and started to walk.
i walked and walked and walked, making my way through the woods; i stayed out for what felt like hours, touring the woods, travelling along the fence, and strolling down onto the sandy beach.
i stood, breathing in the sea mist and listening intently to the crashing waves.
i slowly removed my shoes, discarding them in the sand and making my way towards the water.
the salty water lapped at my ankles and i sat down, drenching my clothes. i didn't hesitate to lay down when the cold started to send shivers up my spine.
i barely felt it.
i was numb.
my eyes were shut, and i felt my hair flow out in the water. i stayed there for a while. until i was sure my lips were blue.
i finally stood up, not caring that my clothes and hair were completely drenched, not caring that my hands and lips were blue.
i started to walk up the hill from the beach, leaving my discarded shoes behind without a second thought - i wouldn't be needing them.
it was like being in a trance. i was completely numb. nothing felt worth it anymore, life didn't seem worth trying for - especially after that phone call to mom.
that's why i made my way up towards the cliff that we had visited just days before.
only this time i was alone.
and i wasnt coming back.
i took a deep breath, shivering slightly as the cold air hit my soaking wet body.
i stepped towards the edge.
emotionless.
i stood, toes already over, letting the tiny rocks and dirt fall beneath my feet.
i felt a single tear roll down my cheek.
i was ready.
i let my arms fall to my sides.
i readied myself.
i stretched one foot forwards.
i shut my eyes.
i -
i -
i gasped.
my whole body shook as i was pulled backwards.
i shook and shook, gasping for breath as someone's hands firmly gripped my shoulders, holding me away from the edge.
"millie.."
my whole body shuddered more at the sweetly familiar voice that rang through my ears.
i shut my eyes, collapsing into him as another single tear rolled down my cheek.
a/n: welcome to your tape.
