26 - gone
finns pov
my heart pounded.
tears ran down my face.
my whole body was shaking.
the same thought ran through my head over and over. if i had run down here five seconds later millie would be gone.
not just gone..
gone.
she was sobbing into my chest, shaking, barely breathing. her eyes were shut and her clothes were drenched in salty water. her shoes were gone. i didn't know where.
"millie.." i whispered, my voice shaky. it was freezing, my lungs burned trying to breathe.
and eternity passed before she finally looked up at me. her beautiful big brown eyes red and brimming with tears. her face was pale and her lips blue, matching her shaking hands.
it was like i found another side of her. she was vulnerable, hurt. and it broke my heart.
"i'm sorry." she barely whispered, my breath caught in my throat and i couldn't speak, why was she apologising? no one who feels like this should have to apologise.
"please don't.." i said, pathetically. i looked up at the sky, i was fucking angry at myself for not seeing it. not seeing the pain in her eyes earlier today, maybe i could've helped if i'd noticed.
it was like she was slipping through my fingers, so close to falling.
i looked back down at her. pulling her even closer to my chest, not caring that my clothes were now soaking wet.
i knew what i wanted to say but i wasn't sure if it would make a difference any more..
"i-"
"i love you." she said, cutting me off.
i raised my eyebrows, surprised. she still had that vulnerable look on her face, she was sincere.
it sent chills right down my spine, the way she said it.
nothing else mattered in the world.
a tear trickled down my face, dripping onto her arm that reached round and gripped my back.
"i love you too." i said, quietly.
she smiled weakly and rested her head on my chest. i held onto her, i never wanted to let go.
never.
a/n: what do you think of this book so far?
