I just want to disappear
Into a bottle
Maybe just into my tears
But right now
Neither is an option
It'll say too much
Or maybe too little.
I've gone too far
Too many days
Since I went sober
I lost count
Have to look at a calendar
One look at my wrist
The words as a reminder
One day at a time
Tomorrow I might be fine.
But today
Right now
I want to not be here
I just want to disappear
Into the feelings
I thought were gone
I had moved on from
But I guess not
To do that I have to drop
The extra weight
Of all the emotions I carry
That I don't need to.
I'll disappear for today
I'll come back tomorrow.
