I don't even know
How this goes
When I am stuck
And feel I'm the only one
That can fix this
I feel like I hit repeat
On a song I didn't want to keep singing
But I'm here anyway.
This time I'm by myself
The tears dry
With no help
I just decide
What will get me to the other side
Of today or tomorrow
No matter what he says
About being mad
I still worry
Cause it can change
I would be screwed either way.
I still have that place I go
That he doesn't know
In my mind
That allows me to do
Everything I need to
So he's happy
And I'm okay
It doesn't matter to me anyway
I don't know what makes me happy
I never stopped to think
Because I don't think about me
It's too late for that
I don't want to go back.
I don't make up excuses
That's what he thinks
I don't know how he sees
That in me
I'm busy
I'm healing
And yet I still have to perform
It's too much
But I can't stop the show.
