I used to think
I used to believe
That we were on our way
To rebuilding things
But it's slipping away
Faster than it's being fixed
I don't know what I think of this.
Sometimes you can fix
What's left of a broken relationship
A shattered marriage
That's what I did
I'm still paying
After apologies
And therapy
I'm a whole new me
But he's going back
To where I started
This time I won't go back
Not again.
I still hear jokes
But when I mess up
It's all over
I punish myself
Worse than he ever will
I don't eat
I can't sleep
Because of someone who doesn't love me
The way I should be.
I wonder if
He really believes
In my dreams
I wonder if
He sees what I see.
