I Punched The Bad Boy

-XXVII- No..

Ryder's P.O.V.
-UNEDITED-

   I gasp as my eyes pop open. I struggle to find my breath. Wild beeping echoes around the room.

   A nurse comes rushing in. "I heard someone shouting something that sounded like you were going to die," She says breathlessly.

   I shake my head. The room feels empty and cold. Thea.

   "Where's is Thea?" She looks at me in confusion. Then sadness. She walks over, digging in her pocket. "What are.."

   She pulls out a crumpled piece of paper. "I was told by a young man to give this to you," She gives it to me. A weird feeling settles in the bottom of my stomach.

   I hastily open the paper to see messy handwriting scrawled onto it. Not just any messy handwriting...Thea's handwriting.

   I can recognize it from anywhere.

   My eyes scan down the page, absorbing the words. The words I would never forget. I look up at the nurse.

   Emotions flitter around my brain, but I can't seem to chose one.

   I want to cry.

   I want to scream.

   I want to run far away.

   I want to die.

   "Ryder," The nurse walks over and puts a gentle hand on my shoulder. "I know, it may be hard. She was willing to," I shake my head.

   "How are we compatible?" I demand. "Isn't there a rare possibility for that kind of shit? And wasn't she alive? They can't just kill her for another heart! Why-"

   "Ryder," A voice says. I look over to see the entire group. Asher, Marune, the twins, Zak, Devin, and even Mariassa.

   "Guys," I choke out. They quickly gather to my bed. The nurse takes a quick step back and leaves the room without a word. I sit up in my bed as they walk forward.

   "We know," Mariassa whispers sadly. "We know."

   I grind my fists into my eyes. "Why the hell would she do that? Why would she sacrifice herself for me?"

   "She loved you," Devin speaks. "She would kill herself for you. She even told me she loved you. She wouldn't leave your side. She wouldn't have made it if you died, Ryder." He states in one quick breath.

   I look up at him. "How am I supposed to make it without her?" I ask. I bite the inside of my cheek to prevent tears.

   I will not cry. I will not cry because of some girl. I will not cry because of a girl I met barely four months ago. I will not cry because the girl I love saved herself for me.

   "Get out," I whisper. Everybody looks at me with pity.

   I fucking hate it.

   "Get out!" I yell. I start punching the bed. The heart rate monitor starts to beep rapidly. "Get out, get out, get out!" I scream. I hear frantic shuffles leading out the door.

   "Get out," I murmur weakly. I sob into my hands. Each heave scrapes at my throat. Someone comes rushing in.

   "Everything okay?" She asks. Her eyes scan my tear streaked face. I don't fucking care. She can look at me all she wants.

   "It's fine," I croak. "Just...just leave me alone please," I lay back down, staring at the blank, white wall.

   The doctor walks out leaving me alone with my thoughts. My dangerous thoughts. My dark thoughts.

   Only one thought flitters around my mind. A question.

   Why did you kill yourself for me, Thea?
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Soo for the people who have already completed this book, like I said it is under going MAJOR editing. Adding chapters or taking out and all the fun stuff. So, here is a new chapter!

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Who elses heart hurts??