La Da Dee ✔

l o n e l y

tonight
the loneliness hit me like a wave
a happiness-engulfing
breathtaking
tsunami.

with the explosive arguments today
I just sat
hunched in a corner
afraid,
shivering,
helpless.
isolated

feeling ever so useless
wishing on the nearest myth
I could have done something
I couldn't.

stay out.
don't get involved.
stay reserved.
keep to yourself.

now
all my emotions crammed inside my head
a messy chaos
waiting to burst out at the slightest chance.

it'll hurt.
once everything's out,
there's no going back.
powered by rage,
desperation, maybe,
but ultimately -
it'll be done.

and now,
in this late hour,
these buzzing thoughts mock me
bumping into the walls of my mind
stubborn headaches
unable to tame them
they taunt me
and keep me from falling asleep
insomnia

with no one else awake,
I feel it is just me.
I feel alone with the world.
and very
very
small.

tonight
the loneliness hit me like a wave
a happiness-engulfing
breathtaking
tsunami.
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a double update bc why not :)