Cross My Heart And Hope You'll Die! (Completed)

27.1

They get away in silence.. Because nothing else is spoken between them. Not even an apology.

They've both been emotionally spent from all those confrontations and have had all the revelations they can't take for one night.. but the fact that they knew something is off, the lesser the possibilty for them, of having a good night sleep.. that they decided to end their doubts, now.

They weren't speaking, really. They just looked into each other's eyes and they both already knew, what they could better do..

"May sasabihin ako."

"May gusto akong sabihin."

Sabay nilang sabi, habang nasa loob sila ng sasakyan. Hiniram pa ito ni Chaos kay Lukas, dahil ang sa kanya ay nasa bahay ng matanda. They're both dripping wet, only Chaos' jacket that keeps her warm.. though not really because it was also soaked from the rain. But it seems the cold never bother them that much..

"Ikaw na."

"You first."

Sabay uli, Napatawa nalang sila. They were not okay but somehow, they're trying to sort the things and make sense out of it.. together.

"Sabay nalang tayo." Sabi ni Sophia, tumango naman si Chaos.

"On the count of three.."

Tumango uli si Chaos.

"One.."

"Two.."

"Nung nawala si Chaos.. sabi niya may ipapakilala daw siya sakin." - Sophia

"Nung namatay si Kuya.. sabi niya may ipapakilala siya sakin." - Chaos

Napatingin sila sa isa't-isa.

"Madaya ka!"

"Madaya ka!"

Sabay uli nilang sabi. Tsaka sila napatigil, when they realized the connection of their incidents.. Sophia is riding shotgun, with downcast eyes while Chaos trail his eyes on the road keeping the speedometer over it's speed limit.

Habang tumatagal mas lalong lumalaki ang galit niya sa matanda para sa panggagamit nito sa kanya na para bang pinaglalaruan lamang siya nito.

"Chaos.. nung araw na yun.. nung nagpaalam siya, Ikaw ba yung lalaki na dapat ko sanang makita?"

"Yan din sana ang itatanong ko sayo, Queen.." naka-diretso pa din ng tingin si Chaos sa daan, "kase nung araw na yun.. nakarinig ako ng boses ng babae, kala ko boses ng nanay ko.. yun pala boses mo."

He paused, unable to continue what he had to say..

"Oo. Naalala ko, tinawag ko ang pangalan ni Chaos.. tas nakarinig ako ng putok ng baril at.. at"

Mas nilakasan ni Chaos ang pagpapatakbo.. ayaw niyang marinig ang sunod na sasabihin nito.. dahil kung ano man ang malalaman niyang nangyari kay Sophia, kasalanan niya iyon.. he knew. Because it's him who's behind the trigger.

"At alam kong hindi ako natamaan kase.. wala akong maramdaman na sakit instead I can feel myself falling on the ground and my head.. I could remember it, I touched my face. I pulled my hand back and there was a streak of blood. Then I tried my hardest to find his car in my field of vision but, I can't. I don't know if my eyes closed or if they just ceased to see.."

She said shaking.. "kaya marahil hindi ako makaalala sa nakaraan ko.. because I've been traumatized. Pamula pa nung bata ako at nalaman kong ampon ako.. hanggang sa lumaki ako and I've been bullied and eventually, became a bully.. then up to that accident. Those past experiences I've never been fully recovered from." natahimik lamang si Chaos.