Taking Chances

chapter 45

I shut the door to my flat, I walk into my room, leaving Jade in the entryway alone.

The emptiness doesn’t go away. She’s five feet away from me. I held her in my arms. But it’s still there. maybe I just can’t be happy for once, god hates me. I hate me. The door slowly opens revealing the most gorgeous girl in the world, she walks up to me, and wraps her arms around my waist. I stand still, scared to move, and not knowing what to do, just frozen on the spot.

“Niall.” She hums, getting my attention. I finally wrap my arms around her. She’s so fragile and so beautiful.

“You’re so beautiful.” I kiss her forehead, her embrace on me tightens.

“Are you okay?” She asks, her voice uneasy.

“No.”

“Are you going to be okay?” She rewords.

 “Yes.” I’m not sure, I’m not sure what is wrong with me.

** I wake up the next day, I actually slept more than four hours. She’s asleep next to me, hair sprawled out on the pillow, and her small pink lips are slightly agape. She still looks lovely. I gently kiss her forehead, then her, then her lips. Trying to wake her up, I’ve been alone for too long.

“Baby, wake up. Please, wake up.” I kiss her lips again. Her eyes slightly open, and she groans and turns around facing away from me. I chuckle softly.

“Jade, it’s noon! Wake up.”

“No.” She says grumpily.

“Jade, please.” She doesn’t answer me, instead she reaches at for me, trying to find me on the bed. She grabs a hold of my hand and I quickly intertwine are fingers together, giving it a little squeeze.

“Darling, please get up, I have a big day planned for us.” I gently stroke my thumb against her soft skin on her hand. “Fine.” She gives me one last groan, before rolling off the bed and standing on her feet.

My heart swarms, when I see my shirt hanging on her body. She looks around the room and her eyes widen.

“I..I didn’t notice this before.” She points are the wall where the string of photos are.

“Yeah..” I feel shy and slightly weird. I hope she doesn’t think it’s creepy.

“It’s lovely. I love it.”

“I just missed you so much.” Her eyes get sad and she just pulls me out of bed and embraces me. “I love you.”

“I love you Jay.”

“I need to shower.” She yawns and rubs the sleep out of her eyes. “I’ll get you a towel, beautiful.” I add, she needs to know that she is. Her cheeks start to heat up and turn a deep pink color.

I walk out of my room and into the laundry room, grabbing a towel and I head back to the bathroom. Jade was already taking off her clothing. When I entered she didn’t seem to mind me, standing there watching her. she tosses my shirt to the ground and she comes up to me, wearing just her bra and underwear.

Wrapping her arms around my neck, she brings me down so she can whisper in my ear, “Join me.” She purrs, while backing away taking off her underwear and bra teasingly. I give her a shy smile and remove my boxers.

She grabs my hand and pulls me into the shower with her and immediately attaches our lips together. My arms wrap around her now wet waist and I pull her closer to me. Our bodies are now pressed together, both naked and wet. I can’t believe she’s right here in front of me, I can’t believe I’m holding her. I  used to crave to hold her, I lived off of the memory of her and now she’s here. And I love her so much, I just can’t get enough of her. She’s a drug and I just need more and more of her.