Let's Play a Game

Chapter 21:Same Little Girl

Word Count:1240

Julian sucks on my neck. "Julian" I say softly. He groans in response, biting my neck lightly.

"Julian" I say more firmly this time. Still nothing . "Julian!"

Julian leans away and meets my eyes. "What?"

"How long have you known?" I ask staring into his eyes.

Julian blinks "Known what?" He replies blankly, turning away from me.

I gape at him as he casually grabs the plate of pancakes and places it on the island in the middle of the kitchen. He walks by me, using his index finger he closes my mouth shut. "Close your mouth, you'll catch flies" I push him away and glare at him.

"Come on, they'll get cold" Julian nods his head towards the table. I cross my arms in protest.

"Not until you tell me how long you've known" I was completely positive I heard him call me Lillian last night. He knows.

"Known what Lilly? That you like pancakes?" He scratches the back of his head "Rememb-"

"No" I snap "Not that"

Julian sighs and leans back on his hands against the island in front of me. His eyes studying me, trying to figure something out. What that was? I had no idea.

"Hate to break it to you sweetheart but I have no idea what you are taking about" Julian replies

I meet his eyes, there's a look in them just daring me to say it out loud. He knows exactly what I'm talking about, he just wants to hear me say it first.

I open my mouth to reply but then think better of it. "I heard you last night"

"So?" He raises a brow at me.

My patience was wearing thin, I didn't want to play games with him. Not when I was so convinced he knew. And if he didn't he would question me about what exactly.

I grit my teeth together. "You know I think I heard you too" Julian mentions "Did you know you talk in you're sleep and not just screaming and cryi-"

"How long have you known I'm Lillian!" I interrupt him frantically.

"Ohh!" The smirk on Julian's face stretches wider across his face "That. Yeah, I've known for a while I guess. I wasn't really keeping track" he muses

"You asshole" I yell standing back up on the ground. Now I was shorter than him. "You just wanted me to say it. Did you know the whole time, huh?" Julian opens his mouth to speak

"Don't" I snap, he closes it. Anger bubbled in my chest, the smug look on his face. What was wrong with him?

"You're so infuriating" I clench my jaw, making myself take deep breaths. "Have you ever thought of taking anger management?" Julian asks with fake concern.

I clench my fists, digging my nails into the palm of my hand. I could feel them biting my skin, I didn't care. "What the hell Julian. What's with the cocky attitude and rude remarks. You were not like this last night."

"Last night" Julian beginnings "I didn't know. I just figured it out last night. It all made sense, you haven't changed much you know? I began to pick up on the little hints."

"You know what? I'm done with this. With you. No point now, right?" I felt a lump in the back of my throat "You know. Congratu-fucking-lations Julian, you've figured it out." I stalk out of the kitchen. I run upstairs, grabbing my things.

Downstairs I slip on my red heels. Julian's leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest.

"What?" I ask impatiently noticing that Julian is staring at me. "Oh nothing just thinking" Julian replied with a Cheshire Cat smile "It's just that physically" Julian emphasizes "You look different, your eyes are a different colour, so's your hair and well" He motions to my body. I continue giving him a glare.

"But personality wise. You're the same little girl. You're love for pancakes and cheese, how easily attached you get," Julian is no longer smirking " the weird ways you pronounce certain things. The tendency to start up stupid little arguments even though you know you might be wrong." I see a little twinkle in his eyes "I thought you had gotten more confident, grown out of you're old skin. Now I know that that's not right. You faked it all, the whole confident new girl thing. You pushed your feelings down and acted all high and classy. Even in these 2 short months, you've let down you're guard. You broke down. You let the old pieces of you fall out through the cracks of your charade"

Panic crept up my throat, threatening to spill over. I kept my expression smooth. "You know nothing about me. It's been 4 years" I laugh humourlessly "No, it's been longer. You stopped being my friend in the 6th grade. It's been 7 years, you don't know me. You think what I told you was true?"

"Yes" Julian answers forcefully. I close my mouth, wanting to hear him explain.

"Yes" he answers softly. He stands up off the wall, taking a step towards. "I saw you. When we were 14. I saw you wearing a little black dress with tears in your eyes running out of the funeral home a week after you disappeared from school. I was walking home from a friends house and I saw you. I had no idea who's funeral you were attending then. I didn't come up to you cause we hadn't talked in 3 years. But now I know, it was your parents funeral wasn't it?" Julian asks softly.

"Yes " I choke out. "Lillian" Julian begins, I flinch at the use of my real name. "Lillian" he says in a low husky voice. My purse and dress have fallen from my grasp. Their lying on the floor forgotten.

Every step he takes towards me, I take one back. Until my back is pressed against the other wall. Julian cages me I his arms, one on either side of me. What was he doing? Last night he was caring and concerned, earlier he was cocky and rude. And now he was just scaring me.

"Lillian" he breathes my name. The way he said sent tingles down my spine. I wanted him, I knew that. I've always known that but I couldn't. He knew who I was and technically I'd just broken up with him.

Even without that all in the way, I just couldn't. I meet his eyes, there was desire and lust in them. He wanted me for my body nothing more, I knew that all this time. This just proved it. Last night I had broken down, like Julian had oh so nicely reminded me, he had just felt bad for me.

Know he knew and he just teased me and was trying to get in my pants. I couldn't be with him. But tell that to my body. I ached to kiss him again. I restrained myself, right before Julian lips could find mine I put my hands in his chest-

And pushed him away. "I can't." I say quickly "I can't be with you."

I bend down to pick up my stuff, his arms had fallen at his sides. I open the door and walk out. I refuse to meet his eyes. As I close the door behind me I say

"Good bye Julian"

A/N:

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