Let's Play a Game

Chapter 28:Honestly

Word Count:1256

A/N

So a little recap on last chapter. Lilly arrived at the super sketchy bar Cade told her to meet him at. She goes to the washroom and when she comes out Cade starts kissing her and touching her in unwanted ways. La de da Julian comes to the rescue, he beats up Cade who he then reveals to Lilly is a rapist but has never gone to jail cause of his daddies money. Julian tries to comfort Lilly but she of course is freaking and tells him to leave her alone.

Anyways... read on!

Somehow and don't ask how exactly cause to be quite honest I didn't really know myself. Julian had convinced me to let him inside of my house. We were now both sitting on my couch watching Netflix and I was finishing up the tub of Ben and Jerries he had bought me.

It might have had to do with the ice cream bribe but there was more to it and couldn't quite explain it. I worried about Isabelle somehow finding out. That girl knew everything. (Might I remind you of her threats and well creepy knowledge of my past life) Her threat was still clear in my mind. I couldn't be with Julian or everything I've worked for would come stumbling down.

I asked Julian if Isabelle would mind him comforting, me, his ex-girlfriend. (He didn't know that Isabelle knew as well.) He reassured me by telling me that Isabelle was in New York for the week.

After sitting in silence for who knows how long, I break it. "Why are you here?" I ask out loud. I don't look at him. I can feel his gaze burning onto the side of my face. Almost begging for me to meet his eyes.

I hear him sigh "Honestly?"

I nod my head "Honestly" I reply

It felt like forever as I wait in silence for his reply. I felt so fragile right now. Like I could break at a moments notice. I felt like that girl of ice once again. I could shatter and fall apart. With one wrong move everything could be ruined.

With everything that's happened in the past 3 months I don't think I can handle much else. It was getting to me. All of it. Isabelle and Julian have ripped open my old wounds. I don't think ever properly healed in the first place.

"Honestly, I don't really know" he replies slowly sounding anything but unsure. I knew him better than that.

"Bullshit" I snap my head to meet his gaze.

"What?" Julian asks calmly.

"I said" I repeat slowly for him to understand "Bullshit. I don't believe you. You're lying to me"

"I'm not lying" Julian insists.

"Sure you aren't" I shrug and then back to my tv and ice cream. I will break him. Just you wait.

"I mean" Julian starts, I smirk to myself. It surprised me how well I knew him even after all these years. "I guess I know why I'm here but I don't want to admit it"

"To who?" I ask

"To you, to myself" Julian replies

I nod not pushing him any more than I already have. My eyes feel heavy, I was tired. It's late and today was an emotionally exhausting day.

"You're so stupid" Julian whispers more to himself than to me. "What?" I ask softly

He re-adjusts himself on the couch so his whole body is facing mine. "You're stupid" he repeats firmly. "You act like you're a whole other person when really you're still my best friend from 5th grade. You're so naive. Going out with someone from Westdale? How did you even meet him huh?"