Misunderstood ✅

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I sat on the floor staring at the barred window I felt locked in like , I was a prisoner , like I did something so wrong that it deserved to be locked away and hidden. We had returned from the camp about three hours ago and I was happy the forest and camping reminded of my brother and I needed to forget about him in order to heal or at least that's what my last therapist said

There was a rattling noise by the door the door flung open and a slight breeze crept in the door creating goosebumps on my skin I stood up and turned around to see who was by the door. My eyes meet with a tall female nurse , she smiled slightly and walked towards me

"Nevaeh ?" I nodded my head slightly moving my gaze away from her and onto my shoes

"Dr Rose would like to see you" she said turning on her heel waiting for me outside.

Great just awesome it's time to go express my feelings as if I was some sort of book I hated opening up to people maybe it's because my past isn't the best thing to open about it but it didn't matter and still doesn't because I do what I always do feel nothing and close up I guess you could call me an introvert

After walking for what seemed like forever we were in the main building there was white everywhere it was if I entered heaven so how. We stopped right in front a bunch of chairs there was nobody and it was quiet too quiet and as if on cue there was a loud bang and then the door flew open and out stepped out an angry Leonardo. How am I not surprised ? I rolled my eyes and apparently he saw me he stood right in front of me with his fist clenched and his eyebrows furrowed

"Got something to say James ?"

"If I had something to say I would have said it" Gosh I hated this boy he gets on my nerve more than my brother ever did

He rolled his eyes and then brushed past my shoulder like he did the first time I met him in the cafeteria it seemed like everytime we had an encounter things would just end up going through the roof

"Nevaeh doctor Rose would like to see you now" The nurse said and I walked into the room , it was not as I suspected there was windows and bookcases all over giving the room more of a homey feel in the middle of the room was a long couch and another normal one sitter couch it was quite a big room.

"Miss James please make yourself comfortable" she said and I started looking around not sure exactly to sit as there was a lot of chairs to sit in I eventually started sat at a couch by the window Dr Rose followed me attentively and sat across from me orienting herself with a notebook , pen and what seemed like a tape recorder

"So Miss James-"

"Nevaeh please" I said interrupting her , its not that I disliked my surname it's just when people referred to me like that it made me feel even worse about my situation it made me feel as if I was some crazy woman and the only way to actually calm me down is to call me by my surname maybe it's just me and my misunderstood self but all I know is I didn't like it

"Nevaeh so tell me about your self ?" She said putting all of the paper, pens and tape recorder on the table besides her

"There's nothing to tell" I said pushing my knees against my chest

"I highly doubt that you seem like quite the interesting character" she said looking at me attentively as if she was studying me

"What's that supposed to mean" I said almost offended by her statement she doesn't know anything about me so she has no right to automatically judge me like that

"It means what you want it to be" she said smiling "Can I ask you a question?" She said tilting her head to the side

"I feel like even if I say no you're still going to ask so go on" why did she even ask to ask me a question I mean she's the therapist here not me

"Why purple ?"

I looked down and realized she was talking about my hair I had forgotten about my hair maybe because it reminded of my brother and the fact that he wasn't with me and he wasn't on this earth in fact nobody knew where he was and it was all because of me

"It was my brother Nirvana's favorite color" I said breathing in roughly looking out the window

"It suites you" she said giving me a small smile , great sympathy how I absolutely love that emotion...

"Thanks"

She cleared her throat "I think we're done for the day"

Confused I snapped my head to the side to face her "Really?" It was such a short appointment

"Yeah look I'm not like any other therapist and I don't want you to feel forced to tell me things I'd rather you tell me things when your ready okay " she said smiling yet again I wonder doesn't her mouth get tired from all the smiling gosh I can't even smile for a minute

I nodded my head and headed to the door "Nevaeh" she called back as my touched the handle

"Thanks for mentioning Nirvana" she said I nodded my head and walked out I can't believe I said his name this is exactly what I was avoiding memories...