Misunderstood ✅

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I should be happy right ? Nirvana is alive and I don't have to go to jail but why do I have a huge knot in my stomach and this huge whole in my heart

The familiar sound of waves crashing and birds chirping caught me off guard I was so in to the fact that they found Nirvana I didn't realize I was in the place where Leonardo brought me yesterday

I fell to the ground my legs giving up on me I felt weak so defeated I closed my eyes and for the first time in twelve years I cried I tried all these years to hold my emotions but now right in this moment I couldn't ,I let out everything , every emotion I felt , all the pain , the regret , the anger just everything and I couldn't stop them I wiped my tears when I heard leaves crunching from behind me

"I knew I'd find you here" Leonardo's voice said from behind me making the hairs on my neck stand up , I turned my head to see him then turned back to where I was originally was facing

"Why are you here" I said closing my eyes , I could literally feel my voice breaking with my every word

"I should be asking you that" he said sitting down next to me ,"Don't blame you though this is kind of my safe haven"

Although Leonardo was speaking I couldn't hear a thing I stood up and walked towards the water standing on the rock, "You didn't answer my question why are you here" I said wrapping my arms around myself

"I was somewhat worried about you"

"Somewhat" I laughed a bit turning around to face him

"Well I don't know what your capable of so here I am" he said standing up and dusting himself "And also I like annoying you"he smiled , taking my breath away gosh I hate this guy

He walked towards me and stood on the rock besides me . I shook my head ignoring him but as soon as Leonardo left my mind Nirvana crept in and the water works started again it's seems like everyone I love dies or gets hurt , I can't imagine the amount of pain Nirvana is going through I'm pretty sure he hates me

"Hey" Leonardo said turning my body so I could face him

"Leonardo no" I said quietly I looked down the tears still flowing

Leonardo's P.O.V.

Her tears fell down her cheeks slowly I could see the pain through her broken eyes , I lifted her chin but her eyes never left the ground

I placed my hand on her check and wiped away a tear she shook her head and pushed me slightly

"I mean it" she said her eyes now focused on mine I wasn't planning and I'm not leaving I cant leave her in such a state I've been through such and I don't wish that on anyone

"No" I said folding my harms my facial features turning sour

"Leonardo-"

"No Nevaeh I dont want to hear it" I said I was now getting upset with her

"Gosh Leonardo do you have to be such a hothead I'm honestly sick of you" she said pacing around her hands in her hair "You think the earth revolves around you that the earth owns you something and news flash it doesn't" she said taking her hands out of her now messy hair

"Funny that you say that miss perfect yet everyone who knows you is running around the institution like a headless chicken looking for you"

"It's not like I asked them to"

"You see that's your biggest problem you push away the people who care about you who gives a flying flip that you didn't ask them all that matters is that they're going around looking for you and you're acting like a brat and well news flash the world doesn't revolve around" I said shouting at her I could feel the veins on my neck and forehead starting to throb , "So get your pathetic act together" I said walking away

"Pathetic" she said after she laughed I looked back at her and the tears had stopped

"Yes Pathetic" I said walking back to the rock standing in front of her

"Oh kind of how you are acting oh so high and mighty"

"Don't compare me to you I'm not a" I stopped before I could finish my sentence I knew it wasnt true but I just wanted to hurt her

"Not a what a murderer? just say it you wanted to say it other time so now you have the platform to do so" She said her eyes narrowing I could no longer see the pain all I could see was rage

"I didn't mean that" I said clenching my jaw

"Your a hypocrite you act like you haven't done any  wrong when you know for a fact the shit you've done in the past" My heart started beating fast , a flashback of my grandparents went through my mind oh gosh how much I missed them they raised me from a child and my thanks to them was to get involved with Jace

"You don't anything about my past"I balled my fist ny knuckles turning white

"Nether did you but it didn't stop you from seeing the blood on my hands now did it"she said her waving her hands in front of my face

"I apologized gosh what do you want me to do" If my best isn't good enough for her then I don't know

"Ask yourself that question" she said walking away into the woods leaving her sweet scent behind

She walked away yet again same place same time different days

What have I done ?

Nevaeh's P.O.V.

I rolled the sleeves up and stormed to my bedroom I slammed the door when I entered Ella , Paris and Madison rose from the bed and rushed to me but I raised my hand to stop them from coming any closer

"Please don't I know your worried and were looking for me but right now I just need to be with my thoughts" I said on the verge of tears

"Your our friend we're not going to leave when you need us the most" Paris said and Madison and Ella nodded

"You shouldn't be associated with me" I said my voice bearly audible

"We shouldn't be we are and were not going anywhere"Ella said I placed my hand down looking to the floor

Madison walked towards me and hugged me I rested my head on her shoulder and cried once again , Ella and Paris also came and wrapped their arns around Madison and I. And at that moment I didn't realize that one gesture could make me feel safe and wanted

I spent the whole day mopping and depressed I didn't even go to dinner because I had no appetite so then I went straight to bed