Misunderstood ✅

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I am fighting my losses trauma and everything bringing ache because I don't want to look in the mirror and see a tragedy staring back

- Noor Unnahar

I can't emphasis how weird yesterday was and that encounter with Leonardo was the cherry on top

"Morning" Madison chirped

"Sleep well" I chuckled

"Yes especially after you told me about yourself" Yesterday I decided to tell Madison everything not that she forced me to but because I needed it to get out , although I didn't go through the details I told quite a bit about my self

"Yeah uhm look I'm going to go to Dr.Rose" I said nodding my head as if I was reassuring myself

Madison nodded and went to the bathroom to go bath , after I bathed I dressed in Nirvana's Long grey sweatshirt and black tights with my fluffy black boots

I walked directly to the main building not wanting to stop and distract myself

Sitting down by the waiting room I waited for Dr.Rose or someone to come see me , "Nevaeh I didn't realize that our appointment was scheduled for Friday its Tuesday today" She said surprisingly

I nodded my head and stood up ,"I'm ready to tell you about Nirvana" I said closing my eyes the whole time while I said it

"Well then come on in"

I put my hands in my pockets and walked towards Dr.Rose but then a sharp pain shot through my chest I fell to the ground on all fours I placed my left hand on my chest and my right hand on the floor I pulled at the sweatshirt my hands trembling

"Nevaeh are you alright" Dr.Rose ran to my side

I closed my eyes and breathed clearing all my thoughts and focusing on the pain and slowly the pain started to fade away , I stood up as well as Dr.Rose , "Nevaeh sit down something might be wrong" she said calmly but I knew deep inside she was panicking

"I'm fine I just had a pain but it's gone now" I said trying not to show emotion even though I was worried about that pain , "I need to take a step outside" I said pushing my way out of Dr.Rose's grip

"I'm calling the clinic I'm worried about you" she said following me out of the main building. Instead of going somewhere calm where I can take a breather I decided to go to the common room I found my group of friends sitting on the sofa changing through channels

"Nevaeh" Ella chirped as I walked towards them greeting them I sat down on a bean bag next to Paris I placed my head back and closed my eyes

"Yo guys the news are playing" Nathan said and the room quieted down

"Woah I didn't realize how into news y'all are" I said

"Well we're not all self centered some of us care about others you know" Leonardo's cold voice from the corner , great his back why aren't I surprised honestly

"What is that supp-" a

"Shhhhhhhhh" Nathan's voice shushed me as he turned up the volume I rolled my eyes and turned my attention to the tv

"Well I have to say Bob she's truly talented" The blonde female presenter said fixing and straightening her paper "And on other news a body was found in Lakeshore by a group of teenagers we are on the scene with Amanda Gilles...Amanda"

"Yes Georgia we are actually in the town of Woodbridge where the body has been moved to Lilies Hospital as the body is actually is in a critical state"I breathed noticing how she was standing in front of the hospital the hospital in my town somehow I had a bad feeling about this

"That must be traumatic for that small town"The presenter called Georgia said "Do you have any in other information about the body"

"Actually we do the body that was found was of Nirvana Knight according to the police and some other witnesses Nirvana has been missing after experiencing an almost fatal accident with his twin sister Nevaeh Knight who apparently survived the accident she was to be prosecuted and charged for her brothers attempted murder but the court ruled it off and ruled her as unstable she is currently in a mental institution"

I didn't even want to listen to the rest , my throat closed up and for a moment I couldn't breathe I looked at the screen in disbelief was I dreaming had my imagination and thoughts gotten the best of me I stood up and looked everyone's eyes were on me and for the first time in ten years a tear traveled down my cheek

"Nevaeh" Shane said standing up towards me

"Leave me alone" I said my voice shaky I shook my head roughly and ran outside ignoring the calls of my name all I wanted was to be alone and this time I meant it