Dear Heart (Xavier Series #2)

Author's Note

Hi. I'm Joy at hindi na po ako magpapaliguy-ligoy pa. Unang-una sa lahat, gusto kong magpasalamat sa mga walang sawang nagbabasa ng mga novels ko. At pangalawa, gusto kong humingi ng tawad dahil palagi nalang matagal ko kayong pinaghihintay.

I know, I haven't been posted an update for almost a month now and there's a reason behind it. Sa mga dati ko pang readers, alam ko na na mimiss nyo na ang araw-araw kong update (I miss it too.) siguro nung mga panahon na 'yun ay mas marami lang talaga akong oras kumpara ngayon (Hindi ko gustong gawing excuse ang kawalan ko ng oras).

For the past years, a lot of things happened in my life. I graduated in college, My mom got extremely sick that I have to take care of her, I helped my Dad in our family business, and I recently got my own business too. And to be honest with you, I'm not updating because I don't have time. Nakakapag update nga ako noon araw-araw sa kabila ng nakakamatay kong thesis nung college eh. It's just that.. I am experiencing something that I never thought I'll be able to feel.

WRITERS BLOCK.

Yes. You read it right.

I'm stress. I'm tired. Puyat. Gutom. Yes. Mas gusto ko nalang matulog kaysa magsulat minsan. Kasi pagod. Responsibilities hits me. HARD.

A recent happenings in my life really affects me. (a lot of things happened) I have a lot of things going on in my mind but when I face my laptop, I can't write anything. Nakakabaliw ang ganun.

Sa maniwala kayo't sa hindi. Pati ang mga characters sa novels ko hindi ko matandaan. Ganun sya kagrabe. Minsan, sa isang oras, isang paragraph lang ang naisusulat ko. Seems like I lost my passion in writing and it scares me.

I'm scared that I might lose the only thing that I'm sure of in my life. Ang kaisa-isang bagay na gusto kong gawin, pauulit-ulit kong gawin, at hindi ako magsasawang gawin habang nabubuhay ako.

So I decided to finished this novel. (though I said that it was a short novel, it was originally contains 20-30 chapters.)

And I needed a break.

This is tiring and I don't want to write half-heartedly. You know me, (sa mga dati ko pang readers)

I'm not writing to please other people. I'm writing to please myself. And to be honest I'm not happy anymore. Hindi dahil sa pagod na kong magsulat o ayaw ko ng magsulat. Kundi dahil, pakiramdam ko, nag hollow na. Empty kumbaga. Wala na 'yung nagbabagang feelings sa mga chapter na sinusulat ko.

Don't get me wrong. Mahal ko po ang pagsusulat. Wala akong paki sa dami ng readers o sa dami ng bumabasa sa novels ko. Magsusulat ako kahat na lima lang kayong bumabasa. Pero hindi ko po pipiliting magsulat kong wala naman talaga akong maisusulat.

It's not fair sa inyong lahat.

Gusto ko kayong bigyan ng magandang storya. Hindi 'yung pinipilit ko lang magsulat dahil 'kailangang kong mag-update'

Guys, I'll be gone for a month or two. But I will be back. I'll definitely be back. I just need a break to rest for a bit. Please stay. And when I get back, I'll promise I'll do better.

I'm sorry. It's not you it's me (deym)

PLEASE STAY. I'LL BE BACK. MARAMING SALAMAT PO.