The Girl With The Dying Heart•Laurmani[COMPLETED]

Thirty One

Lauren

"Are you ready to try again?" Dr. Hernandez asked as I sat on the couch again, looking up at her. There was a puzzle cube placed in front of me that I had the urge to smash so I could rebuild it.

"Yeah," I answered, feeling bad for how things had went yesterday. Today, Lucy was placed next to me. I had asked if she could come and with little hesitation, Dr. Hernandez agreed. She said if she made me feel more comfortable than that was okay.

"Okay. Let's begin, Lauren. Why did you bring Lucy here today?" She asked as I looked to my friend who had her arm around my shoulder.

"Because she makes me feel more comfortable," I answered, earning a smile from the girl next to me.

"And you understand that I'll still ask the same questions with her here?"

"Yes," I nodded and Dr. Hernandez wrote something down before looking back up.

"Okay. I thought we should talk about something different than yesterday since it clearly pushed you too far. Is that alright?"

"Yeah."

"Alright. Try and think of your best memory, as clear and direct as you can," she told me and I thought, my brain bringing me back to when Normani and I were standing on the dock, smiling at each other as she looked down at me. The memory was laced with every part of of our trip to San Francisco from getting to the hotel to our first time. The whole trip had been a ton of fun.

"Okay. Done," I confirmed, my mind holding the memory above all others.

"Tell me what you see."

"I...um..." I could feel my eyes starting to become wet with tears as Lucy rubbed my arm.

"It's okay. Take your time. It's with her isn't it?" Lucy asked and I nodded.

Taking a deep breath, I explained the best memory I had. "Awhile ago, Normani and I went to San Francisco for a pride festival. My favorite memory is when we were waiting on the dock, getting ready to board the boat. She was wearing her new hoodie that she had got when she went into a store, failing to bring water back which had been the main objective of the trip to the building." I chuckled at the memory. "She was telling me how much she loved me while I was wrapped up in her arms, feeling more than happy in the moment. It was perfect. It was just us. There was nothing to worry about."

"That's quite a vivid memory Lauren," Dr. Hernandez commented and I nodded, knowing that all of them were. "Why is it your favorite?"

"Because that day was perfect," I mumbled, wishing that everyday could've been like that.

"Mhm, and have you spoken to Normani at all after the break up? It seems that the source of all this sadness and anxiety is a direct result of separating from her. Sometimes talking helps to relieve the tension that you have inside."

"No. I see her around campus, but I don't say hi."

"Maybe you should try. I think it could really help both of you."

I nodded as Lucy yawned and stretched, receiving an eye roll from Dr. Hernandez. "How do I do that? She hates me," I admitted and she shook her head.

"Don't make assumptions Lauren. It's delusional for you to think that without actually knowing. After all, you did just say you haven't talked to her at all. As for your question, if you see her just walk up and say hello. Don't try and sort things out then and there, just say hi. I'm positive that she will be just as happy and relieved to see you interacting with her as you will. Can you do that?"

"Yeah. I guess I can."

She smiled and continued to ask questions that I would answer. After every one, she would ask how I felt about it and what I meant. It really was helping to realize things I wouldn't usually. Dr. Hernandez was really good.

After the session, Lucy drove me back to campus and dropped me off in front of my dorm building. "Bye Laurenza! Love you!" She yelled out the window, waving goodbye as I smiled and waved before turning and going into the building.

I went to the elevator before being stopped by someone's hand on my back. Turning around, I looked up to see Ty standing there with a lopsided smile on his face.

"Hey," he greeted, removing his hand from me.

"Um hi," I replied, not sure what he wanted.

"So, how are you?" He asked.

"I'm fine. How are you?"

"I'm great. Are you settling in alright?"

"Yep. I like it here."

"Cool. So I was wondering um..." He seemed a bit nervous as I gazed into his green eyes, noticing how pretty they were. I wondered if they were contacts since the shade was so peculiarly. "Would you maybe want to go out with me tomorrow?"

Oh god. No, no, no. Was he really asking me out? Shit. This wasn't good. This was really bad. My eyes flickered to the door, seeing that Normani was coming in with her friends.

The girl who had kissed her the first day was also with them so I made my decision. I didn't want to go on a date but maybe if I did something like this it would get her attention. Maybe she would get jealous.

Once they were inside, I sprung to my toes, pressing my lips against his. No Lauren! My brain seemed to scream as I put my hands on his shoulders. "How's that for a yes?" I whispered once I pulled away, looking up at him through my eyelashes.

A smile tugged at my lips as he chuckled and I glanced at Normani from the side of my eye, seeing that she was watching me. "Tomorrow at six?" He requested and I nodded.

"Sure." I pulled away from him, pressing on the elevator button. Looking at the reflections in the elevator doors, I could see Normani still watching us.

Oh Normani, if only you knew that I want to be with you more than anyone else.