The Nerd

Walls Don't Keep You Safe

Samantha's P.O.V

I grunt as I throw the pillow across the room, I have been picking at the threading for about two hours now and the whole pillow is about torn to shreds.

I stand up, looking around the room hoping for a way out.

I sigh in disappointment, furrowing around in my pockets for my keys but, finding nothing.

Of all things, why this? I don't get it, Patricia of all people he goes for her. I thought what I had with Cash was real it was something, he was the first person I had opened up to since my grandparents deaths and my moms disappearance. The love I felt for him was outrages yet, I never got to tell him because of this, all of this.

I turn my head quickly towards the door, as the knob turns and I hear a click.

Cash walks in looking at the ground and shutting the door behind him.

I plop down on the bed and fumble with my fingers.

"What time is it?" I ask quietly, still looking down at my lap.

"It's about one o'clock in the morning." He responds.

I nod my head, looking up at the wall.

"Samantha-" He starts.

I grunt, "No Cash-"

"Please, just let me explain,"

"There is nothing to explain!" I say, raising my voice.

I push myself off the bed, walking towards him as he takes steps back, "You kidnapped me and brought me to Patricia all after the fact that you claimed to love me! There's nothing to explain I'm pretty sure I got the message loud and clear!" I yell, throwing my hands in the air.

He looks at me as his back presses against the wall, "Samantha-" he starts calmly, "I did love you! I do love you! None of that was a joke none of that was a set up, I love you with every piece of my being I love everything about you, I'm stuck, I was put between a rock and a hard place and told to decide who to choose between the two people I love! You think this isn't difficult for me? You think this isn't killing me? I'm dying on the inside it's tearing me apart!" He yells.

"Oh yea? Well you have a pretty shitty way of showing it!" I yell back, shoving him hard.

He growls, grabbing my arms to keep me in place as he gets in my face.

"I should've never," I start, shaking my head, "I should've never opened up to you! I should've never let you in! This wouldn't be happening I wouldn't be dealing with this I wouldn't be getting hurt all over again!" I yell in his face.

He stares at me, his face showing pitty as I breath heavily.

"Samantha, walls cant always keep you safe." He says, letting his grip loosen on my arms.

I stare him for a moment before I rip myself out of his grip.

"Samantha," he says as I turn away from him.

"No, no."

"Samantha,"

"No!"

He grabs my shoulder turning me around, and pressing his lips hard against mine.

I whimper as a tear rolls down my cheek and I lean into his kiss.

He gently places his hands on my cheeks, kissing me hard as I wrap my arms around him.

He pulls back, staring at me, wiping a tear from my face.

"You don't understand, it's hard there's things you don't know, that aren't easy to tell you." He says, as his eyes flicker over my face.