The Broken and Hurt (Niall Horan)

Chapter 30

niall's POV

Lizzie nuzzles her face closer into my chest, just as I finished calming her down.  she looks so helpless and scared. wide eyed and shaking.  i tighten my grip around and pull her up so her head rests on my shoulder. I gently rock back and forth. My hands rubs against her shoulders. i rest my cheek on the top of her head. Deep breath in. green apples just like always. 

"Lizzie, dont cry. ill always be here and ill never leave.  ill hold you up when you fall. I promise. you can always count in me being there for you." I whisper in her ear.    "please never leave." She responds in such a hushed voice it was hardly audible. I hold her for what seems like hours. What could have happened tht would cause her to break down like this? I rack my brain for answers and explainations, but all are fruitless.  But one thought keeps coming up, Is this all because she simply can't run anymore? That seems a bit ridciulous, but the way she feels about running it quite possibly be that. Pressing the isue will only make it worse. She will tell me when she is ready or not at all.  

Lizzie picks her head up, her cheeks are tear stained and blotchy from crying and rubbing against my shirt.  hair is falling out of her ponytail, framing her face.  I push a piece of hair out of her eyes and cup her face with my hand.  " Niall" a hoarse whisper cracks, " i-i m sorry about this." she attempts to motion to her breakdown. " I dont know how it happened but im sorry that you had to witness it."

" Elizabeth, dont apologise for what happened. something triggered that, there was no way you could stop it. trying to stop it would have only postponed and made it worse. Dont apologise for something you have no control over, it doesnt mean anything. alright? " her eyes were wide.  wheels are turning in her head. she wasnt expecting me to say that, and quite frankly neither was I. it just sorta came out.

"But i-"   " no Elizabeth.  stop there is no need. " I cut her off. " you are just going to confuse yourself of you try to find an explanation for this. everyone needs to cry every once and awhile. its what makes us human. its not healthy to keep your emotions locked away. just building up like a dam. and every time you push another unexplained feeling behind that dam its going to crack." I look down at her to make sure she understands.  "because the dam that holds back all these confused emotions is going to break. a huge tidal wave is going to crash down and youre going to drown.  you dont want to drown in your thoughts and feelings Elizabeth. its one of the worst things that you can do to yourself. trust me on that. ive experienced it a few times before. the feeling of it is comfortable and awkward. you begin hyperventilating because youre just trying to get air into your suffocating.  never hold back elizabeth. and if you cant handle those emotions right away, think about it and tell someone that you trust. gemma will always be there...and so will I."

Lizzie is just sitting there, words seem to fail her.  her eyes begin to water as tears start to brim her hazel eyes.

" i-i  guess always knew you would. be there ti pick me up when i fall, whether physicay or emotionally." a giggle escapes her lips and i smile.  " youre a keeper Reeds." I sigh and bring her face to mine. my lips brush over hers before she kisses back with such hunger and want. her arms snake around my neck and her hands tangle themselves in my hair.  hands roam over her.  a feeling of pure happiness and true acceptance erupts within me eveytime we kiss. its euphoria.  

Lizzie tenses up and pulls away from me, her clothes  askew and her rose pink lips are swollen a bit.  the same probably goes for me. I shift under her weight and lean against the wall.

" whats wrong?"  she puts up finger to tell me to wait a moment.  but just before she can open her dainty mouth, the door that comes from the garage flies open. her brother and mum stand the doorframe talking about something until they turn and see us. their eyes widen at the sight of their daughter/sister sitting on the lap of the boy whom they've about 3 times. easily explained right? oh yea I called her about 7 times with no answer and came to find her throwing a fit of sorts on the couch and went to cuddle her, and weended up snogging.   Lizzie must have been reading my mind because she pipes up. " hey mum and Tony. I was being stupid and walked withou my crutches and fell so I called niall to come help me. so he did and was asking if I w As s alright. sorry I asked someone to come over while you were out. "  she looks up to her family with puppy dog eyes.  its so cute. just like everything about her. " mhmm whAtever you say Lizzie." her brother snorts. " oh god lizzie I wasn't born yesterday, im fine with this," her mum motions to us on the floor, " as long as I dont become a grandmum at this age." "MUM!" lizzie screams, redness creeping into her cheeks. i can feel my face heat up. "stop im not stupid! that wont happen." she says quickly.  " you better not." Ms. Moore says and then heads upstairs. Tony stands there and stares at us. " shouldnt you be house hunting or something , Anthony?" lizzie sneers. oh she's hot when shes mad.  " oh shut up little sister. and Niall? dint di anything to hurt my sister okay?" I nod quickly. " good. then there won't be a problem here." he says in the protective older brother voice amd follows the actions of his mum.

"niall im so sorr-" I just give her a look. " oh right. my bad." her eyes look at her lap. " Elizabeth it was going to happen sooner or later.  I was expecting it but not like that. " I laugh. her eyes meet mine and shes trying to fight a smile. " c'mon.  lets go watch some tv." I stand up and carry her bridal style to the couch. I lay her down and cover her with an afghan. I sit down and put her head on my lap.  my finger run through her hair as we watch Step Brothers.

" niall?" lizzie's voice echoes through the room. " what are we?"  " what do you mean?" she furrows her brows. " like what would you call us?" im not sure what we are but I know what I want us to be. "well what do you call us?"  "together.  " she replies, nice and sweet. " good. thats what I would call us too." we exchange smiles. I bend down and plant a sloppy kiss on her forehead.

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Heeyyy guys. sorry this is a dew days late I was having writers block. :( but its gone now. yay. well enjoy cuz I finished this in geometry.  love you

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