The Broken and Hurt (Niall Horan)

life inserts

Ok so tthese are the little tidbits from their lives after Niall has passed. Enjoy
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Dear niall,

Its been just almost a year since you passed. The first few months were hard because I kept expecting you to walk through the door or make a snarky comment in class. I felt that part of my heart and being was ripped away, I felt empty and hollow.

But ed was right. You know that kid is really smart,. He said i shouldnt mourn over you for too long because you wouldnt want that for me. At first, I thought he was crazy but after a while I realised that I would've said the same thing. Ive finally accepted that youre not coming back, it still hurts but I still need to move on with my life. Snowflake lemme tell you whats happened since you departed from us too soon:

1- my mum adopted ed so he is safe from your parents. Which i know you wouldve loved to hear. He is safe, loved, and healthy. Im not surprised youre parents didnt try very hard to get your brother back. They attempted once but they say nothing but empty threats. Oh youll love this. They were threating awful thing to do to me or my family and i stared them in the eye and said, " well if you two are so abusive and youre threats so nasty, do it then. Come and attempt them because i know that you two wont. You were scared of me in the hospital and you should scared shitless now because im livid and will not hold back like i did in the waiting room one year ago." Lets just say i think they moved back to ireland. Haha.

2- we graduated this year. I got accepted into so many universities , Niall. Oxford, Manchester, Cambridge and a whole bunch in america! Its mad! Im going to university of michigan in the states. Im going for track and psychology. Its gonna be a journey but i think itll be good for me. I wish were coming with me. It wouldve been a riot. I hear the parties are absolutely ridiculous over there and i cant wait.

3) tony and maggie have set a wedding date: may 21st. Its only a year away! Maggie asked me to be a bridesmaid. Im sobbing. Were going shopping next week for dresses, shoes and decorations. Its gonna be small wedding only about 200 People in a little rustic church. I wish you were attending, we couldve gone as a couple. Tony said he would've made you a groomsman. Eddie is going to be a junior groomsman though. He chuffed beyond belief.

4) i have found someone, snowflake. And i really like him. He could never come close to the love i felt for you. That love was rare and one of a kind. Nothing will ever surepass it. His name is James Cahill. Hes tall, buff, and funny. He used to live in London, but moved to Manchester with his family. He is going to America with me, but going to a different university. You two are so much alike. He reminds me of you a lot. It took some getting used to because he would say something and i would freeze. You wouldve said the same thing. It was like living in dejá vio. Its comforting in a way, sort of like a part of you was passed on to James. you will always be my one only.
Well i have to go pack now. This duffel bag is so big i could fit james in it. Im packing so much. I dont think some of the stuff is necessary. James and i go to the aeroport in a few days with our families to say good by. Mum and i already went to get all the things ill need for my room. Its crazy. Everyones been crying alot recently. But ill be back for christmas. Thats only a couple months. Ill come to visit you and tell you all about it. Ill bring Eddie as well.

Im ending this letter. I love you so much niall. More than the number of star in a clear summer night. I still miss you immensely. Ill talk to you later sweet heart.
Always in my heart and dreams,
Elizabeth rose reeds.

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Well there we have it. Ill probably do like 2 more of these. Thank you for all your reads and votes. I apperciate it.
I love you hooligans.

Emily xx