The Broken and Hurt (Niall Horan)

chapter 31

Lizzie's POV

its been about a month since my..uh..crying sesh. im still not sure what happened to cause it, but ive chosen to ignore it. I feel that thinking about will just make me relapse so to say and that ignoring what happened will make me forget it. despite what Niall told me. the feeling of it was like I was drowning, helpless and couldnt breathe. and there was no way for me to stop it. its something that I never want to experience again.  so im going to do whatever in my power to make sure it doesn't happen again.  but things have been fine since then.

Niall and I have been spending a lot of time together becaise we are on the winter holidays. right now im sitting on the couch with Niall watching Teen Beach Movie with Ed at their house.  Mr.  and Mrs.  Horan are out somewhere tonight, so Niall asked if I could come over. ive been over here for about and hour and its about 2 in the afternoon.    sitting here with Niall just feels right. like I would be uncomfortable anywhere where else without him. its weird because I never felt this way before him.   im not sure if it's good or not quite yet.  but its a good feeling, so that must be a good sign then, right?  I sure hope so.

"Eddie, this film is god awful." Niall snides. but its true, the editing is terrible, songs and dances are cliché, and the story line has been done so many other times before. 

"no its not.   its good." Ed retorts. "No its not mate. " "yes Niall!" Niall just shakes his head slowly.  "Well let's see why Elizabeth says. " Ed looks at me.  Niall turns his gaze to me.  "well its..okay.-"  "see I told you Niall." I put up my hand. "but. it couldve have been better.  so youre both right."  Ed and Niall just grimace at each other, then look away.   "My darling Elizabeth saving us from a horrid fight between the super strong Niall and the wimpy Ed." Niall says as he squeezes his arms around my waist.  "oh puh-lease Niall you are more like a fluffy penguin than a big strong man." I reply in a duh tone. he tackles me on the couch. he moves his body until its hovering above mine.  "hey, just because its true doesnt mean it still hurts." he says as his hands roam to my hips and he squeezes them. his sparkling turquoise and soft pink lips just inches away from my own. a giggle erupts from my lips. "but you're my strong flufffy penguin and thats all that matters." my arms snake around his neck pulling him closer. his lips brush over mine. " ill be the best damn penguin you'll ever have." he whispers before he pushes his mouth onto mine. 

This kiss is fulled with hunger and passion.  that's always what Nialls kisses are like along with a bit of reluctance.  im just not sure why though. but I enjoy them whether a peck on the lips or a proper snog. I always want more. they are addicting. I tangle my fingers in Nialls messy highlighted hair, tugging at them slightly. which earned a small groan from Nialls throat.  his hands travel up and down my sides.  just as his tongue swipes over my bottom lip, Ed speaks up. "guys stop. thats gross and i dont want to see it. quit being crazy." the boy scolds with his hands on his hips.  Niall and I both sigh and move away from each other. "sorry ed. we got a bit carried away." I apologise with puppy dog eyes. those always work on these 2 boys. "uh yea what she said mate." Niall chimes in. "whatever" ed says before plopping  himself down on the couch between us.    I sigh again as ed starts another dumb movie. until I get an absolutely brillant plan. "hey guys. lets go ice skating." the boys turn their heads with a smile.

Niall and I glide around the rink, following Ed with our gloved hands intertwined.  The wind whistles through the snow covered trees that surround the rink. pull my beanie down more so the wind cant get to my ears. "Are you cold?" Niall asks a bit  worried.  "no. im fine." I say shaking my head.  Nialls cheeks are rosy and snowflakes are scattered in his hair.  a grey scarf is wrapped around his neck and a black coat  covers his body.   it doesnt look warm by itself but he put on a hoodie underneath it.   His eyes look even bluer and brighter out in the cold.  It's like his eyes are snowflakes, sparkling and unique.  I've never seen eyes like his before in my life.   Niall turns to watch Ed, the protective brother replaces the 'romantic' swooner.  "Eddie, be careful!" Niall yells to the boy. I turn my head just to see Ed fall on his bum with a thud. I gasp and race toward him with Niall not too far behind.

" Ed, sweetie are you alright?" I ask as i crouch beside him. He sniffles and wipes his nose on his sleeve. And nods quickly. "you sure?" Niall says as he stops quickly, spraying Ed and I with ice shavings. i give him a 'did-you-really-do-that-you-idiot?' look. "oh sorry" he puts his hands under Eds arms and lifts him up to his feet. He then gives me a hand so I can get up. I give Ed a hug and kiss the top of his head before hes off again. I turn to Niall and hug him as well. His arms wrap around my waist, my head rests on his shoulder.  after a few moments, I pick my head back up and  Niall plants a light kiss on my lips.  nothing too serious since we are in public.  An older woman skates past, " it's so nice to see young parents together." she smiles sweetly. what did she just say?  did she just call us parents? holy crap...what?? this is crazy we arent parents. "excuse me ma'am, what did you say?" "oh I said that its so nice to see young parents like you together after the baby. "

"oh um we arent parents." i explain. a  confused look spreads across her face.

"but who is that little boy you were raking care of? "

"he is my little brother."Niall points out.

" i apologise then.  its just that you", she looks at me, "looked so close with with me. I just assumed you were his mum. and he was the dad because they look alike."

"its alright. no harm done. and yea they do look alike. I never noticed it before." I smile. "have a nice day." I wave and skate off, trailed by Niall. "well that was weird." he says as he grabs my hand. "yea it was." I chuckle. "do we seriously look like parents or even old enough to be some? "I ask jokingly. "I dont even know. Ed looks too okd to be our kid if he was. I guess its because you were so caring toward him that made the think you were his mum, babe." my eyes widen and I turn ti him. "did you just call me 'babe'?"

"y-yea. is that okay?" "hm. I like it. " I giggle.  he laughs in response.  "c'mon honey, let's get some hot chocolate. " I laugh. "of course dear." he finds ed and we go get the delicious Cadbury chocolate drink.

After a spending a few hours of skating, drinking hot chocolate and joking, I dropped Niall and Ed off before their parents got home and went to the store to get presents for Christmas. When I found the perfect gifts, I paid for them and headed home. I wrapped each gift in a different shiny paper, and placed them beneath the tree. Clothes were changed, food was heated up and Netflix was turned on.  I sat cuddled in an afgan, eating leftover spaghetti and was watching Supernatural.  I replay the day's events in my head and smile.  Ice skating was almost a picturesque moment. I love having days like those, when everything just falls into place.   why cant all days be like today, days in which nothing ever goes wrong and everyone is happy?  seems a bit unfair when you really think about it. we mostly have days where things are mediocre and you feel useless. but I guess you need crap to make the goodeven better and more special.  that must be why its like that.  those good days always seem to happen with Niall. are they the same for him? 

*ping*

my phone screen lights up with Niall's name. I open the messgae and reply to the meaningless conversation we are having about a random scenarios. some of them are hilarious while some are really dumb.   a few are Tumblr worthy, so im debating if I want to put them on or not.  I click the home button and see mt new background picture. its a photo of Niall,  Ed and I  together ay the ice rink.  its in my top 5 favourite pictures right after a picture of my family before it got broken up when I was about 6 and Gemmas and my picture with Michael Clifford at their Koko show this year in London.  I stare at my new picture and smile. it looks like a candid moment, snow lightly falling, rosy faces, and pure smiles. its perfect. 

i check the time, 1030 pm.  i send a good night text to Niall and put my phone down. I grab Gerald my mini ladybug pillow pet and snuggle more into the afgan. the next episode of Supernatural comes on and my eyelids start to become heavy. and about half way through the show, they close entirely. and i dream of Jensen Ackles and Niall doing the random scenario game.

-------------------------------

hey friendships. sorry this chapter is a day late. I was too lazy to finish the chapter last night. :/ oh whale.

I loved writing this chapter.  its cute and funny ^.^

well dont forget to vote&comment. :)

Прощайте друзья

Emily xx