I feel everything too deeply for your shallow heart.
I knew I would regret leaving you. I just didn't realize I'd want you so badly. A man who cared. Cared about more than the norm. Maybe I'll find someone with the same fire within. The same wisdom that came naturally.
Dreaming of a love that you feel deep within. Not a love that only gives you a small thud in your heart and baby butterflies in your stomach. Dreaming of a love that strikes to the core. A love so pure and known that you can not escape it. Dreaming will remain just that.
I'm sorry for all the wasted time.
I'm sorry that I couldn't see that you were enough. I'm sorry that I hurt you. I was so dumb and should've seen how good I had it. You have an old soul, you know how to be a good person without making mistakes and learning from it. I had to make mistakes, leaving you was my biggest one. You should've been one of the most important things in my life. Not me being wild and wanting to do whatever, I was so stupid. And now you're gone. You moved on. I'm honestly really happy for you bc you deserve someone who doesn't switch up and that always makes you a priority. I tried to say all this is person but I think you hate me just a little bit and I'm not trying to screw up your life. I've always been smart academically but I lack common sense. You were a good guy that was good to me. You cared so much. And now, I can't find that. It was bad timing, and that really sucks. But I can't move on until I apologize and give you an actual reason. I hope you can forgive me. I've been going through a lot of shit lately and I've noticed how bad I've treated people who didn't deserve it. You didn't deserve it. I'm tired of living that life. Drinking and smoking isn't actually for me, it makes you make so many stupid decisions. And I know that now bc I made those mistakes and learned. Ig I finally grew up a lil bit.
The first little sentence pertains to someone who I could not stay with. I could not because I am an individual with a wide spectrum of emotions. This person was not the one for me.
The rest are final goodbyes to the one I let get away. I know I should have hung on, I was just "needing" to experience things that weren't necessary. But, I've learned. I love myself a whole lot more and have overcame so much. I have moved on from that stage and now I am prepared to focus on my happiness, self love, and health.
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Broken Pieces
PoesíaThis is a collection of my pain over the past 6 or so years. Writing has always been my outlet. While many of us suffer from mental illness everyone of us copes in different ways. My style advanced over the years so bare with me in the first few cha...
