Broken Pieces

Proof of love

I didn't think that what we did would have made any difference to me. I'm so used to it all being casual and me not having any emotions towards the other person. I didn't think it would make me feel this way. You're the first person I've actually truly cared about, and it made all the difference. You made me feel things I've never felt before, and in a more emotional way. Looking into your eyes did something to me. I don't know if I can move past this. You're stuck in my head. The first time I was still afraid of anything real, I had a lot going through my mind and I didn't make time for you. I didn't realize that the solution could have just been you. You cared so much about me and I think that's what scared me. I'm so used to being used and I don't want this to be like that. I don't want for you to be afraid of me doing what I did last time, I'm at such a better place in my life and I want to include you in that. Circumstances make everything more difficult to understand. I know you don't want to let go of what you have but I need to know. I wouldn't be pouring my heart out to you if I didn't think something was here. I don't know if you can and I may sound stupid but I really feel like it's something that's meant to be. Our timing is always bad, that's what ruins it. I don't want to be a mistake you made or a side piece for you. I want it to be real. And if you don't feel up for it that's all I need to know. Someone's bound to get hurt either way, but my heart can't take this merry go round forever. I have no problem waiting for you, to me you're worth it. I don't plan on giving up on something I believe in, unless it's what you want me to do. It's all up to you. I don't think we'll ever work as "just friends" I feel far too much towards you for that to ever work. Just tell me what I should do. I'm tired of being confused.