Nothing in life feels normal. I know that at this point in my life my brain is supposed to be confused. Everything is supposed to be hard to understand for me. Why do things turn out the way they do? What is my purpose? Will I fulfill it? I'm so scared that my future will be messy. That I won't have reached important goals. That I won't have impacted the world in a positive way. I'm so worried.
But if I stay worried all the time I won't ever enjoy the right now. I just need to be here now. I need to learn from the people around me. The things I experience. I need to appreciate it all. I'll always be scared of the path that lay ahead. I just hope that I will always be prepared for it.
Lately I've been worried about my body.. again. Am if I'm good enough for society. Someone told me it looked like I lost weight. That I looked good. As if before I hadn't. And it made me feel sick. What was so bad before? I have highs and lows when it comes to self love. Self love is hard. One day you can feel as if you are full of so much of it that you can show the world. Other days you want to hide away, forever. Most days have felt that way lately. I just want to hide. Hide from myself. Hide from my fears. Just keep myself locked away for good. I wish the fears would stop eating me alive.
I've been feeling meh lately. If that's a feeling. Idk everything just feels off. Anyways, if you can relate I hope you realize that giving up is never an option. I'm definitely not giving up. Bad days make the good ones so much better.
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Broken Pieces
PuisiThis is a collection of my pain over the past 6 or so years. Writing has always been my outlet. While many of us suffer from mental illness everyone of us copes in different ways. My style advanced over the years so bare with me in the first few cha...
