infinity kiss

i miss you

although I'm surrounded in company I cannot find my secureness.

my pulse is slow and it scares me because I miss the beats that thump when you're here.

I've never felt so lonely even being in a sea full of people.

you're not here and I haven't been okay in awhile because of it.

how cheesy is it to miss you after not seeing you in the short time.

now I have more to do and less time to see you...

I cannot rhyme because it's too much work, I just want to see you and be close to you.

I want to hear your voice and I want to feel your touch.

I want you to talk about how geeking out and see that sparkle in your eyes.

I want to feel my cheeks burn up from your kind words.

I miss you, so much.

it's like being the only slow beating heart in a room full of thrilled, alive people.

how selfish of me to only want you in that room, no one else.

how insensitive of me to care less about anyone else in that room, but you.

but god, lately everyone else has been inconsiderate without even noticing.

who's to blame? probably myself.

I've been the muse lately in each note of every song.

how conceded of me to think of that when all it could be is my uncalled for reasons.

my empathy is bumming me out and how sad I've been and inconsiderate to those who probably are in the same room full of alive people with slow beating hearts.

so not only do I miss you, I miss being alive.

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I've been having writer's block lately aaaah.