infinity kiss

breaking down

I'll show you just how I'm breaking down,

I'll show you why the house is tattered to the ground.

I'll show you why the wallpaper is ripped up and the carpet is stained,

I'll show you why the knife is covered and why I look so drained.

I woke up that morning with my teeth all over the ground

and my lungs nowhere to be found.

I woke up to your screaming and violence

not what used to be kindness

here you are asking what happened to the house and what happened to my wrists

you're asking why I didn't "wake" you with a kiss.

here you are oblivious to your demon

I can see it fuming.

my voice is cracked up and no, it doesn't need tuning.

I just wish you would remember what happened when your voice was booming.

I think I'm breaking down,

similar to the walls that fell from your sound.

similar to the ocean waves that crashed into our home and pinned me.

how it hit and hit that damn sea, rushing and breaking our beloved canopy.

the one we kissed under when the house became ours,

the one you tripped and dropped those flowers.

the ocean turned into fire and I could feel my pulse raise higher.

the fire was in your eyes as it hit our home, maybe I shouldn't have called you a liar.

the flames were in your hands as they engulfed around my wrists and neck,

maybe I shouldn't have tried to put you in check.

your demon destroyed our home and everything that once was a depiction of love.

my foolishness was how I broke down and had my first time praying to up above.

and here I am sleeping next to you with uncertainty on finding my words,

the ones I need to completely explain just how you're breaking me into thirds.

maybe I'll sleep when i am dead, maybe your demon will suffocate me first,

as your bare back touches mine, I grip tight to the sheets, afraid of its thirst.

save me, as I'm breaking down, the night is darker than before.

I can't find what used to be the bedroom floor.

just watch exactly how the house and I are breaking down.