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Broken

Kylie point of view / play the song when I tell: enjoy 😊
I've been gone for about 3 days.
Nobody is bothering me which is good!
I went to the living room to watch tv. I turned to cartoons because why not?

I was watching reruns of 'cat and dog'
Until I heard a voice and it was Alizè. "YO HOE!! IM BACK!" I flinch when she yelled. "You scared the living crap out of me!" I said back. "Do you want I go to a party?" She asked. "Nah and I can't drink because of my piercings!" I said. "Are ya sore?" She asked. I nod, "ok well, imma go to a lil party with one o my friends!" She said and I just said 'ok'

She got ready and left while I was getting ready for Netflix and ice cream.
I was watching 'pretty little liars' and eating some ice cream. On of the episode ended and I ate all my ice cream so I went to throw it away.

START SONG NOW!!!!

While is was doing that I was thinking of how..I'm a disappointment to my family, how I'm never good enough. See when I think like this I write my feelings down so, I got a piece of paper and wrote my feelings down.

Lately I've been feeling like I'm a disappointment to my family and how I'm never good enough! I don't know what I ever did to feel like this. When I wake up I ask myself if I should just give up! I feel like I'm in a room with tons of people and I'm screaming and nobody can hear me! My mind is killing me and I feel so numb and I just can't take it. But I try to deal with it like I usually do!

I folded that paper and put it in my bag. After I wrote that I dont know why but, I started to cry. I couldn't hold it anymore, I was done I was broken. I picked my phone and called someone who I would never call unless if I had a problem. Micheal Hayes! My old dealer.

My phone rang for a few more seconds till he finally picked it up. "Hello?" He said. "Hey Micheal this is Kylie!" I said. "Well hello Kylie." He said. "Um can you sell me some weed please?!" I said. "Ok Kylie, well how much to you want?" He asked . "Just some! How much would it be?" I asked. "Well for you it's free!" He said. "Ok thanks!meet where we usually meet?" I asked. And he just said 'yes!' And hanged up.

After Kylie got the weed!!!!!

I finally got it and I went to my room and locked the door. I took one of the blunts out of the lil baggie. I got my lighter and light it up. I took a big breath, "wow" I said as a whisper. I took my breaths, then 1 lead to 3 blunts till I looked into the mirror and my eyes were blood shot red.

"Holy shit!" I said to myself. I walked to my bed and started to lay down until I heard a voice that belong to Alizè. "Hello Kylie!" She said jumping on me. "Hello!!!!" I yelled. She looked me in the eyes and said. "Kylie are high?" I nodded and laughed. She left me in my room by myself.

I heard my phone go off and it was Ethan again:

Daddy😈
Plz Kylie pick up! I miss you so funking much and I just want to hug you and kiss you! Everyone misses you! Plz ur mum is sorry! I love you so much princess🖤

I was gonna answer him until I felt a tear coming down my face by reading that text by Ethan. I know I can't ignore my crew as much as I usually do. I know I need to answer him but, I don't have the will power to do that. Something inside of me is saying 'don't do it',then on the outside it's saying 'do it'

I guess I'm just a lost person that you can't find. I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. I feel like I'm never enough for people anymore. I can't function the right way anymore. I think I'm just a BROKEN person!