After a long night spent with Erin and the kids at Voight's house, Voight passed out on the couch, while Erin went up to her old room.
When Voight woke up and didn't see her, he freaked a little. "Erin?" He ran around searching, "Where are you!?" He finally reached the only room left in the house he hadn't checked and Erin slept peacefully in the bed.
He shut the door quietly and walked outside to make another phone call.
"Hello?"
"Hey, it's me again. We have to tell her, I'm worried about her," Voight stated.
"Voight, we can't, you know that. She's already in danger, but if she knows I'm still alive, she and my kids are in even more danger. I love her, but this is what has to be done," Jay explained.
"I don't want to lose her. Jay, she's broken without you," Voight replied.
"Don't say my name."
"Sorry," Voight apologized. "We can't do this to her. She isn't that bad at acting. She can keep it a secret," Voight said.
"Give me a few more days. Just a few," Jay ordered, hanging up.
Voight walked back inside and started on breakfast.
A few minutes later, Erin groggily made her way down the stairs to find Voight sitting down eating breakfast and feeding her kids.
She smiled and grabbed herself a plate.
"Do you want to talk about last night?" Voight asked.
"Not really," Erin sighed.
"I'm not going to pressure you or force you, but if you talk about it, it may help."
"If I talk about it, then it makes it real. I don't want it to be real. It can't be," Erin took a big bite of her eggs.
"It is real." Voight ordered, "talk."
"Jay is gone. He died protecting me and I don't deserve that kind of love. He didn't deserve to die. I did, though. It's all my fault, too. Kota and Lyn don't deserve a mother like me, but they should have a father like him. I shouldn't have let him save me and it kills me to say it, but I guess I'm blaming myself when he's at fault. I should've pushed him off me, I should've done...," she breathed out shakily.
"It's no one's fault. Trust me, you guys will be together again," Voight consoled.
"I was trying to go be with him...," Erin stated.
"It isn't up to you, Erin. It's up to God, and his plans for you have not yet played out so don't cut them short so soon."
"I won't, Hank."
They both sat there quietly for the rest of breakfast. Little did Erin know Voight was hiding a very big secret from her.
