Homicide // A.I.

Chapter 45

“Just breathe,” Kaila says and takes slow breathes as an example.

“Don’t tell me what to fucking do,” I yell.

“Okay then fuck you too,” she jokes and I glare at her, she throws her hands in the air.

Finally Ashton and Luke come running to the car and we drive to the hospital. The ride there was painful and felt like forever. I kept screaming, I accidently hit Luke in the face and I’m basically crushing Kaila’s hand. Once we got there Ashton was screaming that I was in labor, I finally was rushed in with them by my side and we got put into one of the hospital rooms.

Finally I was pushing and breathing heavily, I was crushing Ashton’s hand and he looked he was going to cry.

“One more push,” the doctor says.

“I’m trying,” I say starting to get tried.

Finally the baby came out and rushed out of the room, I was scared because usually you get to see your child but I didn’t even get to see him or her.

-

After waiting for twenty minutes the doctor came back but he looked worried. His mouth was formed into a frown, his hands were sweaty, and he was rubbing his hands together.

“I’m sorry Mrs. Irwin but your baby didn’t survive,” he says.

“What,” I say.

“Your baby died right after birth, we did all we could but he didn’t survive.” He informs me.

“No,” I frown.

“I’ll give you a moment,” he says and walks out the room.

“What are we going to do,” I look at Ashton and begin to cry.

I see tears run down his face and he hugs me. This was an emotional time for us and we probably won’t ever forget this. Just then Luke and Kaila run in and looked confused, they looked around for the baby and we cried hard.

“The child died after birth,” I say between cries.

They come over and hug us both and say sorry. I cry hard before the doctor comes in and hands me some papers to sign. Once that was done I fell asleep, Ashton pulled up a chair next to me and held my hand.

-Few weeks later-

Today was my child’s funeral and I was already crying. I have been crying since I left the hospital and Ashton thinks I have gotten into depression. He was as equally as sad but didn’t show it, I heard him crying in the bathroom in the middle of the night. Kaila and Luke cried a few times but not as much as we did. Alex and Niall still haven’t talked to us or even apologized for the rude behavior they had the other night. I mean it’s not like I care because at least now I know who is really there for me.

Once we got to the cemetery I was already balling my eyes out and my makeup was ruined. Ashton held me close and whispered supporting words into my ear, he was crying a lot too but denied it when someone asked him if he was crying. How could life treat me this way when I have done nothing wrong? Then again I have took away many lives and made a lot of people lose their loved ones.

Once the funeral was over I said my finally goodbyes before leaving, when we were walking to our car we saw Niall and Alex walking towards us. Alex had two white roses in one hand and the other was interlocked with Niall’s hand. They walked past us and into the cemetery; they place the flowers in front of a grave then walked towards us.

“Sorry for your loss and sorry about the bullshit we went through the other night,” Niall says and then gives Alex a look.

“Sorry for insulting you all,” she said in an annoyed tone.

“We don’t need your sympathy and we don’t need your bullshit either,” I say and walk away with Ashton.

“Whatever then if that is the way you want to play, game on bitch.” She calls out and I just stick the middle finger out in the air.

We got into our car and drove to a restaurant where we were meeting up with Luke, Kaila, Calum, Michael, and Catherine. Calum was actually being quite supportive even though he wasn’t there for most of the situations that happened, but it was the thought that counted. Michael was being quite emotional, he said he really want the baby to live because he wanted to be like an older brother for the baby. Luke and Kaila were also upset because they wanted me to have this child but ended up not even get to hold him. Catherine showed her sympathy which I was kind of happy for but also annoyed, I was in hard time right now and the last thing I needed was sympathy. When we got to the restaurant we went through quite a few hugs and some of them brought presents?

“Here I got you this as a memory,” Michael said and handed me a little jewelry box.

I opened the box and saw a little bracelet with what the baby’s name would be and his time of death. It was actually the best thing I have ever gotten, I gave Michael a gigantic hug and he also got one for Ashton which I was glad for also.

“Michael this is wonderful,” I tell him.

“It was nothing,” he gushed.

“We got you this,” Luke says and hands me a little rectangular shape covered in wrapping paper.

“Sorry the wrapping paper sucks, Kaila did an awful job at wrapping it,” he jokes.

“Hey the car was moving on a bumpy road it was the best I could do,” she jokes and playfully hits his arm.

“Whatever helps you sleep at night,” he says.

They were cute, even if they are or aren’t dating. They were cute and I hope they were or are going to date, Luke was a good match for Kaila and maybe I just really want them together. I suddenly realized I was just staring at them and I quickly looked down in embarrassment.  I un-wrapped it and it is just a collage of the good memories, just looking at all the photographs made me cry happy tears.

“Thank you all so much just for being there for Ashton and me it truly means a lot. Now I know where I belong and who my true family is,” I say before we take our seats.

“We got your back,” Calum says and I give a smile.

The day started off from being depressing to happy. I was grateful to have these people in my life because no matter how sad I can be just one look at them and I am the happiest as I can be. This is what love feels like, not romantic love but family love. This is what it felt like to be a part of a family, a real family. Without these individuals in front of me I don’t know where I would be, I’m glad they came into my life when they did.

( I was going to post this earlier today but I was caught up in the #SNOOPDOGGFOLLOWPARTY  on twiter so I was distracted. (You can follow me on twitter if you want @cashtoncake09) But her is going to be the plan.

I plan on posting posting the final chapters until Sunday then the sequel will be posted next Friday! Then my new fanfiction "Destroy it all" will be posted next next Friday. 

Well I love you and thank you for reading when I thought no one would read this. Please comment I would love to hear your feedback on how this Fanficition is going. Well THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING MY BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS AND READERS!

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