[✓] LOVING HIM ━ tk.

[HUIT] future

KIM TAEHYUNG

i woke up on monday with the thought of losing weight. i was sick and tired of being like this, not doing anything to change it. i went to the bathroom and got on the scale, reading what it said. my heart dropped after i saw the number. 210. how did i lose sixty pounds in three months? the last time i checked my weight was in january, and it's the end of march now. i stepped off and then on again, not believing it. same number.

i swallowed. if i lost this amount of weight in three months, imagine myself in senior year next year.

but i didn't lose this from exercising.

i was starving myself.

i looked at my stomach, slimmer than before. i wasn't happy. i was lightheaded, not because of what happened but because i skipped dinner and breakfast. i gripped onto the bathroom sink and waited for my headache to disappear.

i took a sip of water and calmed myself down, letting the cool liquid flow to my stomach. "i'm okay.."

"i can do this for three more months."

MONTHS LATER

i walked around the cafeteria looking for a seat. it was the beginning of june and i had lossed 47 pounds already. not from starving, but from my weight loss coach. i was finally almost in shape and jeongguk's friends didn't torment me anymore. i gained confidence and my best friend is still jimin.

he asked me to be his boyfriend a few months ago, but i told him that i wasn't ready yet.

but in two weeks when it's his birthday, i'll be confessing my feelings to him. it's a promise.

i flipped through jimin and i's photobook and blushed. it included pictures of us when i was still not fit and it included pictures of us when i was.

BAND REHERSAL
may 18th, 2017

SHOPPING WITH CHIMCHIM AND TAETAE
may 23rd, 2017

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAEHYUNG!
may 25th, 2017

i smiled and flipped through the rest. it was true, he really was there for me through thicc and thin. a tap on the shoulder snapped me back to reality and i jumped.

"jeongguk!"

he grinned and sat next to me. "so.. how was today? you ate breakfast right? this afternoon we will be doing a parima run workout, so be ready."

"ne," i smiled.

yes, jeongguk is my weight loss coach. he was an athlete and was pro at losing weight fast. he helped me with workouts that would burn more calories than i ate. i know i have a lot to repay him, but he apologized to me with that.

there were some times where we'd catch eye contact and he'd make annoying remarks of how i should stop flirting on him but i knew he did it for jokes. he was my best friend, and i was glad he left his toxic group of friends and replaced them with me.

he patted my thigh and looked up at the beautiful sky. "taehyung, you've come very far. i'm so proud of you. you look amazing, and really hot. fuck, if jimin doesn't take you my ass will!" jeongguk looked at me, frowning.

"guk.. i don't know what to say to him. i'm confessing in two weeks. he makes me so happy and he's supported me for the longest time anyone has ever did." i said, sighing in content.

he blinked and slightly smiled. "that's.. good."

"is something wrong?" i asked.

he shook his head, a faint sound coming from his mouth to reassure me. "i'm okay. well, i don't know what to say either. just.. follow your heart, yeah? do what you want."

| jeongguk's point of view

no! don't do what you wanna do! can't he see that i love him? what am i supposed to do? he's over here drooling on another man. i even replied so awkwardly— what a coward. 'do what you want' and 'follow your heart' what am i, a kindergarten teacher?

i groaned on the inside and turned around.

"taehyung." i called his name, and you could hear the grumpiness in my tone.

"hm?" he asked, looking at my cheek. i blushed and pursed my lips knowing that he's looking at me.

"i-if he rejects you then remember i'm here, okay? just call me whenever-"

"i know. you've told me that a million times. don't worry, he loves me." taehyung smiled lile a fool as i looked at him. i looked at his expression and clicked my tongue.

and i love you.

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BINCHES THETES A LOVE TRIANGEKRRRNDID and no there wont b jikook bc i fuckin hate jikook (the ship,, chill) so much lmAo ok bye i love u.

WAIT also i know losing over 30 pounds in a couple of months seems impossible but this is a fanfic and i suck at writing in first person so thats why this book is my least favorite in style of writing. IM SORRY SORRY SORRY. ha. okay i love u bye.