[✓] LOVING HIM ━ tk.

[DEUX] starve

KIM TAEHYUNG

i picked up my pace and went out of the bathroom and changed my clothes to my uniform in my bedroom. i grabbed my backpack and walked downstairs, sitting in the breakfast chair and waiting for my mom to bring me food.

she saw me and brought a pre-made plate that sat in the microwave. i looked down and sighed. "mom, this isn't enough to eat."

there before me was a half sandwich cut into two, but i only had one half of it. it was barely anything.

my mom scoffed, "you need to lose weight and i'm doing you a favor. just stop eating much already! i care about you.."

in that moment, i broke.

i fucking broke.

"you care about me? you didn't care when i told you that i wanted to die. you didn't care when dad fucking blowed a punch at my face. you definitely didn't care when taejoon's friends came over and called me disgusting names. you don't care!" i screamed, already running out of breath. "i barely eat, but nothing is happening. it won't be long before i'm gone."

tears brimmed in my mom's eyes, and she pointed her finger to the door. "out!" she pushed me. "go to school! god, you were a mistake. you're right, i don't care about you."

"-and it's not just about that," she continued. "it's because you don't care about your damn self."

tears stung my eyes and nose. i gulped and walked out the door after saying: "have a nice day, mom."

i didn't want to cry. i couldn't let myself cry. i quietly walked to the bus stop alone. i saw a boy next to me and when i looked up, i almost yelled. oh, fuck. it was jeon jeongguk.

i turned around and screamed in a whisper. who the hell is at the bus stop at 6:30? it's thirty minutes before the bus comes.

and just before things could get any worse, my stomach growled. my eyes widened and i clasped my mouth, turning to him. he looked up and chuckled.

"didn't eat breakfast today, taehyung?" he asked, his eyebrow arching.

i shook my head slowly and looked away. my shyness caused me to not talk at all. the tension and awkwardness flew in the spring air, and i chewed on my bottom lip.

"w-what about you?"

FUCK. oh my god, oh my god, i'm screwed. why did i ask that? he's gonna tell all of his assholes of friends-

"i ate an egg omlet. it was pretty good but i've had better. you know taehyung, if your mom or dad doesn't let you eat at home, just come over to mine." jeongguk smiled.

"really?" my lips parted.

jeongguk laughed, "of course.. not. my parents don't even know you and i have to eat too."

my heart fell to my stomach and i felt my breathing get louder. someone please, hit me with a truck. he was probably thinking that my ass would eat his refrigerator, him, and his damn house. and that was what made me know something about him. he's just like the rest of his friends.

"oh," i said almost in a whisper. i turned slightly to him and walked up. "j-jeongguk."

"hm?" he said, looking at the cherry blossoms above him.

i breathed in, "are you like the rest of them?"

"...them?"

how convenient. he doesn't even know his own gang and here he is looking stupid and dumbfounded. well played, jeongguk.

"you know, the people who you hang around with and the ones who make fun of me.. everyday."

i stopped breathing for a second. he shifted his head back down to meet my eyes. he's so.. beautiful? i looked at his sharp jawline and perfectly drawn lips, and smiled at the size difference of each lip. i drooled over his almond and round eyes, and smooth white skin.

wake up, taehyung. he's talking to you.

i snapped back to reality to see him getting on the bus and the bus doors closing. i gasped and ran, waving my hands to the left and right. i panted, pausing to bend down and place my hands on my knees. i catched my breath and looked up to see the bus stopping and opening the doors.

in relief, i jogged to the bus and walked up the short stairs. i looked around for an empty seat and sighed as i couldn't find one.

"hey! i have a seat here!" a voice called out. i scanned the seats to find who said that and i finally found it. park jimin.

i smiled and squeezed myself into the seat. i saw one of his earbuds that fell off and the black beanie on his head that accidentally slipped out some of his silver platinum dyed hair. he was holding a book and he put it in his backpack so there was more space.

"you know," he spoke up, "you don't have to look for anyone but me while on the bus. just find me and sit next to me. i'm always free. also, we should talk more. i see you all the time in period 5! am i rambling?"

i giggled. "no, you're fine."

hey, thanks jeongguk. i made a new friend today because of you.