[✓] LOVING HIM ━ tk.

[DIX] guilt

JEON JEONGGUK

he swallowed and his eyes stayed on mine. i looked everywhere in them to find a glint of hope inside but i found none. except guilt. tears built up in his eyes and i found myself cupping his other cheek, bringing him closer to me.

"guk.. don't." he whispered, so close to me that i could feel his breath on my lips.

"why?" my voice cracked. i couldn't keep my tears in.

i couldn't let myself fall into him but i did. i tried to keep my feelings behind but i failed, so hard. i told myself that loving him would be difficult and it was— but it was worth it. it was.. right?

"i-i.. this isn't right jeongguk. i don't know what to say, but don't take advantage of me like this." he closed his eyes.

i gulped and nodded, pulling away. "i'm sorry, taehyung. it just.. slipped out of me." i lied.

"don't lie to me," i started, "are you sure you don't have feelings for me? i.. i've been with you for almost half of your junior year.."

taehyung looked up into my eyes and i broke. i saw the glimpse of guilt i saw again and his round eyes that killed my insides. he looked so vulnerable; one touch and he could break.

"i can't lie and say i don't, but.. now isn't the right time. you should have confessed earlier.." taehyung tilted his head a bit, lips pursed.

i let out a sigh of disappointment and nodded. "i know, i should of. i'm sorry, i-i really am. forgive me, taehyung."

a sad smile spread on his lips and he wrapped his arms around my neck, snuggling his head in the crook of my neck. tears fell down my cheeks that reached his shirt and i fisted my hand into the back of his shirt, letting my tears fall.

"i love you taehyung, so much." i cried out, burying my into his shoulder. "so much,"

i thought that my tears had slipped onto my chest.. but it was taehyung's. he was crying, because of me. i hugged him tighter and let go of my fist.

"please don't leave me for telling you this.." i sniffled into his shirt.

he pulled away with red, puffy eyes and he gave me a weak smile. "never, jeongguk. even if someone tells me to, i won't." he said with a chuckle.

i hated him for saying that because i knew that after this,

i'd leave him.