[✓] LOVING HIM ━ tk.

[TRES] humiliated

KIM TAEHYUNG

'don't speak to me ever again.'

a million knives sliced my heart as those words slipped out of jeongguk's mouth. my arms were stiff, my words silent. he didn't know how much i was screaming inside.

how much i wanted to run up and hug him and tell him i love him, how much i was hurting being in a relationship with jimin.

but he didn't want me.

it was true that my relationship with jimin was suffering. i would often find myself crying because of him, locked in my room because i knew he was talking to someone else. if i confess to him that i knew, he'd yell at me. this wasn't the jimin i knew before, and this wasn't the jeongguk i knew.

i knew that jimin's whole personality changed, because now all he does is coddle me or ignore me. ignoring was something jeongguk promised me he wouldn't do. i remembered the time when i found a girl texting jimin about something i wouldn't want to repeat ever again.

FLASHBACK

i woke up from my bed without jimin beside me. i assumed he was in the shower because i heard loud high pitched singing from less than ten feet away from me. i laughed and shook my head, realizing how dumb he sounded.

a ring then rang around the room and i turned my head to find where the sound came from. there i saw jimin's phone and i picked it up, answering the phone call.

"hi! right now-"

"baby.." a girl's voice came from the phone. i flinched and dropped the phone, scared at what she had just called him. "jimin i need you right now oh my god.. jihoon isn't at home right now, so can you come over?"

shocked at what i just heard, i drop my jaw and look at the contact name, 'lee aera'. who the fuck?

"bitch i am so sorry but jimin isn't here. he's taking a long ass shower, bye." i ended the call and threw the phone across the room.

what the fuck?

FLASHBACK OVER

i stood there, humiliated, ashamed and hurt.

"is that how you really feel?" i asked, my nose stinging from the build up of tears.

he nodded nonchalantly, "to the point where i wish you never existed."

i blinked, and tears began to fall. i wiped them as soon as they fell and i swallowed the salty liquid so that i wouldn't have any tear stains.

"taehyung sweetie!" a voice chimed in my ears and i saw a middle aged woman coming downstairs but stopping after she saw me. "w-what happened?" she asked.

i looked at her, then jeongguk and then back to her. "i-i'm so sorry, i have to go."

i said, wiping my tears and rushing out the door after i bowed to both of them.

sobs escaped my mouth and i let them out. i was so done of keeping these built up feelings to myself. i was so done of being bored of. i was done of being here.

i was so done of being alive.