Love for Eternity (Seth's Imprint)

Chapter 35

Esme's POV:

"Dixie, where are you?" (E)

"Momma......I'm already out of Washington. I'm sorry, I couldn't stay. I'm going home for a while. I'll call you when I get there." (D)

"Dear is this something to do with Seth and-" (E)

"STOP! Please, don't say his name. Just don't please. I just....I have to go home. I need some time to think and......please understand that if my heart could take it I would have stayed with you. But I can't take it a second time. He will be happy. I made sure of that before I left." (D)

"But Dixie-" (E)

"I'm not coming back momma. I'm sorry. I.....I love you like you're my real mother and I'm sorry to lose you almost as soon as I found you. I just.....I have to go home. I'll call you when I get there. Bye momma." (D)

I heard the call end before I could say anything else, and I felt Carlisle wrap his arms around me again as I leaned into his chest. I know that everyone else heard as well because Jacob takes Nessie into his arms and upstairs as her tears become steadier. I look back to the rest of my family and I see them all look as downcast. She truly was a part of this family, and now that's she left us I don't know what to do.

"If she's going home, then we might be able to find her and visit her. See if she'd be willing to tell us what happened." (Rose)

"That might not be such a bad idea." (Jasper)

"Well where is home for her though, she said she had houses all over." (Em)

"I would bet Missouri, or maybe Texas. Remember that night she got drunk, she said she loved Texas sunsets in the summer and she'll know that we can't really follow her there as easily because of the sun." (Alice)

"I'll start looking into it with our connections in the south." (Jasper)

"I'll contact the ones in the east." (Rose)

"What if she goes back to Europe?" (B)

"Then we have enough contacts over there to be on the lookout for us I think. Let's see if we can find her southern homes first." (C)

I feel myself nod in agreement with them, even if I feel that no matter if we find them or not. It will be up to Dixie to agree to coming back with us, and I know how stubborn she can be. It will take her own gift of persuasion to get her to come back to us.

Dixie's POV:

I felt my heart hurt again as I hung up the phone and continued driving. I don't plan on stopping until I'm out of Idaho, just in case they tried following me. Alice not being able to see me in her visions is paying off right now though. I know that mom only wanted to help but I need to deal with this on my own. I feel the tears continue to fall down my cheeks as I drive and I feel the angel's anger bubble up in my chest.

I feel that alcohol will be a big part of my life in the coming months if I'm to have a chance of keeping the angel at bay, just as it was a big part of life after Jesse was killed. I turn down the highway to head towards Texas, hoping that the hot sun on the flat ranch will be different enough from the forest haven I just left. I watch as the sun climbs higher in the sky, each mile further away breaking my heart just a little bit more.