Love for Eternity (Seth's Imprint)

Chapter 30

Seth's POV:

I woke up to my imprint talking in her sleep as she laid on my chest. I looked over at the small clock on the bedside table and saw that it was already nine in the morning. I smile as I look at her still against my chest, until I hear what's she's saying.

"no.....Seth.......stop......stop.....Seth......no." (D)

"Ruby, Ruby......wake up. I'm here, everything's fine." (S)

Faster than I thought she would, she shoots out of bed and towards the bathroom door before it slams shut. I hear her hurried breaths and then I hear her throw-up. I wince as I know that she must not feel very good right now, and it also means that she can get a hangover like anyone else. I hear the door open and Esme walk in, while Edward motions for me to follow him. I walk downstairs and outside with him before we stop on the front porch.

"Seth, normally I wouldn't invade someone's privacy like this but I feel that it's necessary right now." (Ed)

"Why? What happened?" (S)

"She is a bit hungover it seems, but not as much as you would expect. I think the only reason she kept you out of the bathroom was because she had a nightmare about killing you. It was so real that she's blaming herself as if it's already happened. I don't even really understand how it frightened her that badly but Esme is tending to her right now. She is truly frightened of becoming closer with you than you are right now." (Ed)

"So do I tell her she's my imprint now or wait until she trusts me?" (S)

"I'm not sure. That's up to you, but most everyone else in the house says wait." (Ed)

I nod a bit slower as I think about waiting even longer to tell her. I feel him gently squeeze my shoulder before walking back into the house. I wait for a few moments before I follow him into the kitchen and I see Ruby sitting at the counter with a glass of water in her hands and a plate of toast in front of her. I go to say; something to her but before I can she looks at me and I see the same beautiful silver blue eyes that's been in my dreams for all these years.

I smile as I realize that she does have those color eyes after all. I watch as she hesistantly returns the smile before Esme offers me breakfast. I take a plate and sit next to Dixie at the counter, eating in a peacful silence, nothing like the silence of yesterday. Carlisle comes back into the kitchen and looks at us with a gentle smile on his face before he looks to Ruby.

"Dixie, we need to check your wounds today. Also, I feel that we need to have a family discussion about.....Angel." (C)

I watch as she tenses at the last part of that sentence, glancing at me for a moment before looking back to Carlisle. She nods a bit before looking down at her plate of toast, then towards Edward in the doorway. He nods and I can only assume that he's answering some question she had. After he gives me a nod as well I know I'm right. Now I'm just curious as to what she could be asking him that she didn't want to say out loud around me. And why his answer made her tense up again.

Dixie's POV:

I had asked Edward if Seth would be there for the Angel discussion and he nodded in the affirmative. I know I had said something about it to him last night as I fell asleep but what exactly I said is kind of fuzzy. I was truthfully hoping he wouldn't have to know anymore about it then what he's already seen. Then again, if I want him to start avoiding me for his own safety perhaps it's a good thing if he's scared of me.

"In the living room Carlisle?" (D)

"Of course, whenever you're ready Dixie. And you're more than welcome to keep calling me dad." (C)

I force a smile on my face, just hoping that after he learns everything there is to know about Angel that he still lets me call him dad. I make myself eat a slice of toast and swallow the rest of the water before standing and heading out into the living room. I see the same chair that I sat in the first time I met the family open, with mom sitting next to it smiling at me gently. She had managed to calm me down after the nightmare, reminding me that there were more than enough vampires to stop me if I ever had to be stopped from hurting Seth. All I can really do is hope that it doesn't come that, but I never really know what the bloodthirsty part of me will do.

I sit down as mom takes my hand into hers with a gentle smile on her face, giving my hand a reassuring squeeze. I try to return the smile nad the squeeze, but find it difficult at the moment with my nerves. I feel a wave of calm and I don't have to look up to see Jasper standing near me. I do look up to see Nessie smiling at me, as well as Seth who's standing nearby. I look to Edward and Carlisle who I expect to be asking the questions they want answers for.

Esme's POV:

"Well Dixie, we all know your past. At least what you told us, Jacob told Seth the other night. But what we hope you'll tell us now is more about Angel." (C)

"We just want to try and understand it a bit better so we know how we can help you." (E)

"I understand, just know that it may not be something you can help with. I've been trying for over 180 years to get rid of it or just learn to control it better and I've failed." (D)

"When did it begin exacly?" (C)

I give her a reassuring nod and smile as I squeeze her hand, trying to comfort my newest daughter as I see the pain of her past on her face. I see her take a deep breath before looking down at the floor and then back up at us. Edward soon tilts his head in confusion as he stares at her but before he can ask her something she starts trying to explain.

"When I was I think six or seven, and I......I was shot by the Yankee soldiers it wasn't me that.....this makes me sound like I'm crazy but it wasn't me that killed them. It was the part of me that I call Angel mostly because of the newspaper article that came out after it happened." (D)

"Angel is your bloodlust right?" (Ed)

"Yes....and no. It's my bloodlust but it's also a version of me that is extremely angry at basically everything, extremely violent, and extremely thirsty." (D)

"So it's you but almost like a newborn version of you, or a newborn vampire version of you I suppose." (Jas)

"I guess, I don't really know. I've just always referred to it as a separate person because it's near impossible for me to control and it's not who I want to be, not usually." (D)

"That night in Port Angeles in the alley, Angel had control at one point didn't she?" (R)

"Yeah, my eyes go black when the Angel is out. I guess you could say I have a problem with people who abuse those weaker than themselves, it almost always brings the Angel out." (D)

I see her bite her lip as she looks away from us and back down to the floor. I send a pointed look at Jasper and he nods a bit before she seems to become less tense, shooting a small smile to him as she does. I look over at Seth and see him having to hold himself back from tackling her into a hug, even though I too feel as if she needs one right now.