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Warning : *shoves tissue box to you* Angst coming up :( Song : 这不是我 by 炎亚纶
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I've been so tired all day , and I still ran , for ninety minutes
Reiji Sakamaki, for the first time, was out of his mind. This was the only day that he went out to run only for ninety minutes non-stop. He wipe the sweat out of his forehead and latch the towel onto his back, jogging back home to take a bath and read his book.
This story is so solemn , but when I saw, I almost laughed
As Reiji got back home, he quickly took a bath and saw the book you once made to him. It was entitled Love Lasts When I'm With You. Though there were some little grammatical errors, he appreciated them. He almost laughed but he stopped himsef from doing so. His tears were at the brink of leaking too. Just remembering those painful memories... wouldn't you feel your tears brimming with tears?
Home is just around the corner , what's wrong with me , I still got lost
After a long Christmas, I'm still celebrating , Happy Valentine's Day
A few months after, Reiji was wearing a scarf while walking around the busy streets filled with humans that he once hated and love but this time, he felt nothing to the humans. They were nothing but useless and worthless piece of trash he would say.
Christmas was long gone so is January. Febuary, his favorite time of month where the both of you would exchange gifts of love. You were grateful to have someone like him. He was loving, caring just— everything a perfect man could be. It was just that day's incident have to happen, everything's changed.
Logically speaking, back then, I had no one, but was able to live
Why is it that after you left, I changed into someone so unlike me
When he had known that his brothers were keeping a secret from him, he knew it was even worse that keeping it from him. It was about you. You... left him due to a hit-and-run. It changed him so immensely that he locked himself in his room for how many days. He knew it wasn't like him and he knows... it's for the best.
Once I hear the song, I'll tear up , That's not me, certainly not me
When he was locked in his room, he would always replay the song you both love, Sad Song by We the Kings. It would always compliment you both when you were alone.
He keeps replaying the song again and again, hoping you will come back to him and listen to this song once more with you in his arms.
The thought of you, my heart would ache , That's not me, I'm not so weak
The thought of you in his mind, it would always hurt as he thinks of you. Your beautiful smile, your (Eye Color) orbs, most of all— your heart that contained your love for him. He felt weak and his heart would ache whenever he would take a glance on the photo frame which held your first date with him. Memories would flood and his heart would ache more. "The more it aches... the better..." He would say.
Why?
If his heart would ache, it would hurt and if it hurts, he would die right? But he can't. He is immortal. That's the only thing he crossed out of his mind. He wants to believe he isn't and would die and go to heaven to be with you as it was paradise for him to be in your care again.
Love should become mature, and peaceful break ups should be a harvest
Although his brothers would like to help him on his helpless state, he would push them away, talking to an imaginary you. There was a time where you broke up with him because he was violent at that time. You ran away as he looked for you. Once he found you, you were at a cliff. He saves you before you could fall and you came back to him. Break ups could mature the both of you right?
Why am I holding onto memories, this way, I'll never lose anyone...
That's not me ... not me
He knows he isn't his usual self anymore. All that he knows, one day, he's going to be together with you, smiling, playing, kissing, and no more missing. He knows he hasn't lost you yet... He knows that you'll come back.
You'll come back right...?
The end of the open sky and wide sea, if I can finally walk that slope
Kiss me like a friend, even if I'm not myself
Once I hear the song, I'll tear up
That's not me, certainly not me
The thought of you, my heart would ache
That's not me, I'm not so weak
Love should become mature, and peaceful break ups should be a harvest
Why am I holding onto memories, this way, I'll never lose anyone...
Not me ...
When I can't sleep, tears leak out of control, That's not me, certainly not me
Thinking about you makes me crazy, That's not me, I'm not so weak
Originally, I wanted open-minded tolerance, but the wisdom learned were of no use
Forfeited freedom still won't break ,this person who doesn't know to love them self
Not me....
The person you love most, is not me Your unwilling person, is not me
Not me...
The person you love most, is not me Your unwilling person, is not me
